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KINDNESS???

POSTED ON: 31 March 2011 @ 11:48 PM | 0 comments


Do u believe in kindness?
Do you think that kindness plays a role in this society nowadays?
Do you think that you should be kind to people around you,even they are not of the same to you?
Do you even practice that in your life?

I do not know how to define the real meaning of kindness.Personally,I felt it is the action of exhibiting love to people around you.It is the act of love that you are able to show kindness to people around you.It is because you love them,that you care about them.When you care,you are kind enough to sacrifice something for them-money,time,etc..

Isn't that the act of love?

I believe in love,not of B&G relationship.But every relationship and people you met/will be meeting especially God's love.

For God so loved the world,that He gave up His only begotten son.

Honestly,it was HIS love that saved me from being the one i used to be but the one who I am now.It is true that it's not because who I am but because who HE is.(That was something I learnt throughout my walks with him).Because He had paid a price,I shall live for HIM.Sometimes,it is really difficult to live within that,but you know what..

Psalm 145;8-The LORD is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.

It is amazing when I looked back into my past, realising I am not who I was used to be---a temperamental person who thought the whole world was biased towards her.It wasn't a very easy path to walk but it builds my relationship with my Good Lord.It made me depend on him even more.It made me see things in a way I never see things before.It opened my eyes to the how vulnerable a human could be but in God,a person could gain all HIS strength as GOD is our stronghold.

Being kind is a part of me,to show HIS LOVE to people,and even strangers.God is so kind to me.Thus,it is my responsibility to show HIS love to people who needs it by being kind.Even if they don't need kindness,it's FREE.

* I was walking under the rain two days ago.A non-Christian girl (in fact she is a Muslim),asked me if I willing to be sheltered under her umbrella.And while I was walking with her,we talked.It was a brief conversation.But it made my day.Surprisingly,I did the same last month by sheltering a Muslim girl when It was pouring.She said that I was being kind.Now,I know how she felt when someone showed you kindness.*

When I posted ' I believe in kindness' in Facebook,someone told me 'What is the point of being kind to people when people is not kind towards you?'.I answered that ,'If kindness was all about being treated equally in everything you do,how can that be kindness?.For kindness is doing things without expectations..

Luke 6:35: But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.

I believe in God's kindness.Through him,I can show people around me,His kindness.It's okay if they don't appreciate it,I am doing it for HIM because I know He will be smiling if I show kindness to people------even better to those who has no privileged tho enjoy kindness.

It always good when you are doing things that people don't normally practice..things that they don't even care....
















-Amazed-

POSTED ON: 28 March 2011 @ 10:25 PM | 0 comments

''This feeling,I couldn't expressed.Because now I know.I am still standing still.Was taking a stroll walking in a very slow pace with with the wind calming,leaves brushing,branches dancing,roof' drumming....and still standing still.''



-taken when I was walking slowly and enjoying the breeze-

I was taking a very very very slow stroll today.I was rather calm.It was drizzling.Rain poured on my face drop-by-drop.I did not think of assignment or any task to do.I was thinking for now, I know why God put me in Jazz Band.For seriously,today I see the reason of it even more.I am really touched by God.So touched.I couldn't express this.I wanted to say...

''Lord I give you my heart,and I will search for Yours even more''


He assured me that I made the right choice to stay in Jazz Band to surround me with people that open their hearts to me.It started with last semester and I am really happy with everything that is happening.I may not be talented in music but I will learn to endure the great music talent there.But,my heart is desire to do God's will.

There is one girl,Hing Yee.She was quite close to me.Not really close like pouring hearts to me.But we were close that we shared the same LOUD laughters.I was comfortable with her accompany with Laura.Today,we had September annual concert in Jazz Band and i was supposed to have my dinner with the other two girls but they left.I wanted to go back to my dorm and just skipped dinner.I saw her,playing drum.(*she don't really know how to play actually.^^)..

Then,we had dinner together.Then I started to ask how many siblings she is having.Then,she talked about her mom.I talked about mine too.And when I talked about my dad.She said,'MINE TOO'..I was rather taken aback.This girl who laughed cheerfully had this same incident as me.I felt totally like her out of sudden.Thus,I asked her ,'When was this happened?'...She said it was one month before entering the university last year.I wondered,'How strong was she?'

What made me actually started to be emotionally clung to this matter was when she cried!I was so touched.So touched by God's marvellous works that He put me in Jazz Band to console people who feels the way I felt,to show HIS love to people who is bitter,crying and need someone to listen to.Today,I really feel that I can really do something in Jazz Band.I do not what is my influence there.I do not know how well will I establish my relationship there.I do not how long will I stay there.But i will surrender to God this matter and He will provide me answer later like how HE did today.

I patted on her shoulder telling her , 'I understand.'



When I sat in the bus,I was thinking how my dad's death affect me so much.How this sad part of my life which I struggled that it led me to knowing another heavenly daddy.But honestly,I miss him.I miss my daddy,miss calling him,'Papi'.Sometimes,I do really feel incomplete in family because of his disappearance..But,those heart of missing of my 'Papi' is stored in my heart.



BUT TODAY!!!

Gaining the Love of JESUS CHRIST and his sacrifice changed me,to a better person..someone who if I was 'me',i would amaze by 'ME' now..

God is my provider and my strength.

Today,i learn that HE IS MY PROVIDER....I shall cast all my everything to HIM.=))

Psalm 59:16
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.

*Thank you for allowing me to serve you even more and show YOUR marvellous love through me to people who can open their hearts to U.Amen*


''The Story of Starfish''

POSTED ON: 27 March 2011 @ 11:51 PM | 0 comments


''One day,a man was walking on a beach and saw hundred of fishes on the beach.While he was walking on the beach he saw a boy.The boy was picking the starfish one by one and throw it back to the sea.Thus,the man said to the boy,'Why do you pick those starfish and throw it back to the sea knowing you can't throw all of them back?You know you can't made any difference.' The boy picked up a starfish and said this before he thrown it back into the sea,' I am sure I can make a difference with this one.''.

Today I learnt so much from my church.It was so awesome.Fam made her first trip here too.And I was really glad.^^

First I learnt that OUR LIFE IS SHORT.So short that it resembles the vapour.Who knows what could happen tomorrow?There were earthquakes,tsunami,floods..etc. It again emphasize on the shortness of our life.I really was really shocked when I know life isn't long.God gave us 24 hours per day which equivalent to 86,400 seconds per day.For we can't save it for the next day,neither can we freeze it.

Second,I learnt that we should MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY OPPORTUNITY.It really speaks to me.REALLY.Like sometimes I choose people to spend time.I always choose to spend time with people that really needs my ears.Like today,I spent time with my Jazzband senior,Jane who needs a listening ear.I am glad she said ,' I wish Jazz band has more people like U'..*me shy*...But I am really hoping that God can use me in Jazz Band even more for I know HE is using me.THIS HIGHLIGHT THE STORY ABOVE!!!!

''You can't make difference in hundreds of lives but YOU can make different in at LEAST ONE LIFE''...

God must have chosen YOU to touch someone's life..


Ephesians 2:10-For we are God's workmanship,created in Christ Jesus to do good works , which God prepared in advanced for us to do.


Do not WAIT to serve the LORD like,'I shall wait till i graduate and I will serve the LORD',for opportunity is everywhere.YOU will have to be AWARE of it.


Thirdly,LIVE WISELY!!!Too much commitment can rob away our TIME with GOD!!So,think of it!!

''How do we live our life?' 'What is IMPORTANT for ETERNITY?' 'What is your FOCUS?'

For we are expose with many things that grab away our attention from God,our loves one and those who need us to help them.Televisions,movies,games,gossips....

''Above all things ,GUARD your heart..because your heart is a well-spring of lif..thus,if your well spring of life is dirty,it's not going to be a treasure anymore..as it's dirty.''

Lastly,understand the WILL OF GOD.Knowing and understand the will of GOD are different.If you would like to the WILL of GOD,you will have to SURRENDER totally to HIM. For the Lord means 'The controller of my life'. Remember you can't have TWO drivers to drive a car.Thus,you will have to choose.Surrendering also do not mean GIVING UP here.

''Are we redeeming our time?''
''Are you there to help someone?''
'Are you there to listen to your children?''
''Are you there to summit your LIFE to HIM?''


*In the eyes of the Lord.Everyone is worthy of HIM to die*....

Are you willing to do the same too??


Easter Celebration 2011...*excited*

POSTED ON: @ 4:17 AM | 0 comments


''WHAT WAS I DOING??''

I did not save the previous blog...*OH NO*.....

Anyways,It's not difficult to write one sincere post,right???All you gotta do is to speak through your heart that will project through your words.

*I am the main character in sketch*

I was so happy when I knew I was chosen as the main character in skit.I was like ''seriously'.Despite the hectic schedule in Jazz Band due to performances in Convocation,God chose me.I remembered few years,I was supposed to be in a play for my church but because I couldn't attend the practice as often as I could,I did not participate in the end.But I know ONE FINE DAY,God will choose ME.

For most people,THIS IS NORMAL.BUT NOT FOR ME.I never really have this opportunity,you know.That's why I am truly glad I am in USM to shine for HIM,to be the one chosen to do all those things for him,to be more passionate for HIM,to let HIM has HIS way with me more with me,to learn to be a better Christian.God is more beautiful than ever.I am changed by HIS GRACE!!!!GOD is beautiful.

''God,thank YOU!! Thank you for your amazing works in my life.To use me.That's the most awesome.To choose me among the others like how u choose MOSES..despite his weakness.I have no words to express my feelings except my truly gratitude to save me since I was 15years old..Thank you,daddy..^^..Amen'.

Anyway,it was a combined Easter Celebration with CUS,LCWF and CLC,the other 3 other Christian Fellowship.How marvellous God uses USES all of US to do HIS marvellous job in USM.
The best part of the whole event was knowing people actually going back to HIM such as Fam.Truly,the feeling was real awesome.I was like so happy when Fam to me she wanted to go church.I can cry in JOY!!hahahaahahah... Some people like Chong told me he was touched.I really hope they will continue to sow their seed and not to forget that GOD always welcome them with a big hug and I will always be there to tell them that God loves them.Despites that,knowing that some hearts were opened.That was the best.Awwwww....Marvellous lar...

'SO WONDERFUL...COZ OF YOUR UNFAILLING LOVE'

Sometimes,GOD really make me awe in wonder.LIKE he is really awesome-lar!hahaha.Cannot express what I wanna say..HEHE..




''Easter Day Banner ''




'THIS IS US,CHILDREN OF GOD''





'WE ARE ALL FOR HIM..despite our craziness...LOL'



'CUS's performance'



'Our skit-Everything'



Abel the Money-Tempter, Stephanie the Model,Jessica the 'Devil', Michael a.k.a Jesus,Me,Monica the Drunkard,Joana Our Director for the Skit,Justin the Romeo and Bay,our Project Manager...^^


Everyone did their real best on that very day because they passionate for GOD.Not forgetting those who became ushers and handled the food,how they washed plates and those who carried the PA system and handled the technical system.Thank You all for glorifying God's name.God bless you all for you guys had done such a great JOB..wee...*me is happy now*


Psalm 66:3... "How awesome are your deeds! So great is your power that your enemies cringe before you.




The smell of your hair

POSTED ON: 20 March 2011 @ 6:42 PM | 0 comments

This could one of the most non-Christian related posts I am going to write in my uni life.

'The smell of your hair' is attributed to a guy who is more than a friend to me.He is like my best-friend.I liked him, but as we grow closer,I treated him like a real,good friend.Things changes between us,knowing he likes another girl.But,we became closer.I became the only place he told me,his feeling,frustrations,anxieties and everything.

I shall treat my best friend like everyone else.Yes,there must be boundaries.But as much he adores me,I adore him too.

'The smell of your hair' was actually the smell of his hair when we lied on each others' shoulder.The smell of his hair.The heart of mine that I am trying to control not to beat that rapidly when we lied on each others' shoulder.Perhaps it is because I don't want to be in one relationship which don't affirm God to be in the centre of our relationship.

'The smell of your hair' strongly highlight the trust in friendship.There is a thin line in making a best friend and being in G&B relationship. I believe mine is best-friend with little of feeling in it.

Couple days ago,I was facing dilemma with myself.Trying to convince myself that I do not like him.Yes, I do.I have feelings for him.Therefore,I need to check on myself that I shall not do something that I don't think it's alright.

Devil love to input those thinkings in Your mind,causing you to guilt about something.But God know all the efforts you are doing to withstand those temptations.As much as God loves me,He forgives me.=)))

That's the best thing about being a Christian.YOU DON'T CONDEMN yourself.

I believe in God.I believe that He wants me to abide in HIM!I know it might difficult to to have feeling for a best-friend.I have been there before.Thing is repeating its history again.But I shall just surrender to God.I know this might be super difficult to me.But I am growing in HIM now.

Psalm 71:20-21
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.


For I cast all my cries to Him,to surrender to Him.....and............
I will not deny myself for liking this best-friend of mine.





In the midst of confusion.

POSTED ON: 19 March 2011 @ 2:19 PM | 0 comments

Have you ever felt seriously 'deja-vu'?Seriously felt that things happened like repetitions?It is not very 'deja-vu' for me.It is just that i dont think I can face it again.Life is a path.Too many repetitions make my life seems to be kinda complicated.I do not know whether this is a test from God or something.In the past I may did it because I was a young Christian.But,now?I dont think i should be doing all over again.And what sadden me,it's a another path that I have to make choice between best friendship and temptations.

I am confused now.I can tell no one.Yes,to Lord.But to people around me?Those aches for five years seems to have leave a deep scars on me.I can't undergo anymore.

I never read the diary again.I promised not to be that again.But choices are hard to make.If only i could just surrender to the Lord.My heart doesn't tell me so.

It seems like in uni,things are complicated.I really i will undergo this with God's hand with me,telling me how to distinguish what is right and wrong.

p.s:why am I even involve in this?It wasn't my stuffs at first.




Just when I broke-down!

POSTED ON: 15 March 2011 @ 11:41 PM | 0 comments

Sometimes,I find so hard to tell people my feelings.To tell...it is so difficult.
Sometimes,I need a shoulder to cry one...To cry,it is so difficult.
Sometimes,I need a place to tell.....To find a place,who will listen?
Sometimes,no one listen....why?Because they don't have time or they don't want to listen?


And why;when they asked me whether I am alright..why do I smile?
Why do I said,'Nothing, don't worry' when all I need is comfort?
Why do I always listen to people knowing that my problems are not solved?
Why?

Because I am born like that.Because people trusted me.Because I am not open to people around me as my attitude could not always allow me to tell what I feel.Because.....

God wants me to depend on HIM!!!

Because no matter what,He is there!
Because He wants me to depend on HIM!
Because of His strength,my weakness is no compare...
That's why!!!

Because He loves ME and He wants to hold my hand!!!




For God is great!!

POSTED ON: 14 March 2011 @ 4:26 PM | 0 comments

Sometimes,it really pays when you become a mid-person of a complicated relationship. Sometimes,I really wonder should I even care?It is difficult at times.There are times I really feel bad.But I am really trying my best to help those around me.The joy of them is what that makes me happy.

I am caught in the middle of my good friend(it's a he) and a girl.Why is it so?I do not know.Trying to think as much as I can.But I don't want to him to lose faith in God.For he said to me that praying will not make those things go away but only ensure temporary ease of mind.But it's not like that.God gives hope but time is the matter.Am sad he couldn't see that God loves him so much.I believe God loves him more than I 'sayang' him.But was rather at ease when he said I am the only one he could brag to.

That's what that makes me continue to be for people when people tell me that they could pour their heart to me.It's amazing how they trusted me.

I think God gave me that very gifts. Sometimes I am caught in the middle because of that.But I am willing to be there just like God.I am really hoping God is using me to be there and draw back hearts to HIM.

I love people.

P.S:I talked to an auntie today who worked as a cleaner.Actually I love to talk to them.It reminds me of my mom...how my mom actually worked as a school cleaner to support me??

Dear:Lord
I just wanna express 'thanks'..million of thanks for putting me in USM.For I could realise my amazing gifts here.For you love me so much and u planned my life.Even though,I am so new in Christian Fellowship for I never have opportunity to shine for U.But I really do want to serve.I am so sorry for always so busy and not reading what you want for me---daily bread.But you have been real good to me.Always Always there for me.You never never forsake me!!O' God!!!!I will never never leave you because of U,I see the light of my life.I see my purpose.I see my gifts.I see my talents.I may have weakness.But in YOU,I am perfect.Thank you ,Lord for choosing me.Thank you,Lord.
In Jesus Name,Amen.

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KINDNESS???

POSTED ON: 31 March 2011 @ 11:48 PM | 0 comments


Do u believe in kindness?
Do you think that kindness plays a role in this society nowadays?
Do you think that you should be kind to people around you,even they are not of the same to you?
Do you even practice that in your life?

I do not know how to define the real meaning of kindness.Personally,I felt it is the action of exhibiting love to people around you.It is the act of love that you are able to show kindness to people around you.It is because you love them,that you care about them.When you care,you are kind enough to sacrifice something for them-money,time,etc..

Isn't that the act of love?

I believe in love,not of B&G relationship.But every relationship and people you met/will be meeting especially God's love.

For God so loved the world,that He gave up His only begotten son.

Honestly,it was HIS love that saved me from being the one i used to be but the one who I am now.It is true that it's not because who I am but because who HE is.(That was something I learnt throughout my walks with him).Because He had paid a price,I shall live for HIM.Sometimes,it is really difficult to live within that,but you know what..

Psalm 145;8-The LORD is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.

It is amazing when I looked back into my past, realising I am not who I was used to be---a temperamental person who thought the whole world was biased towards her.It wasn't a very easy path to walk but it builds my relationship with my Good Lord.It made me depend on him even more.It made me see things in a way I never see things before.It opened my eyes to the how vulnerable a human could be but in God,a person could gain all HIS strength as GOD is our stronghold.

Being kind is a part of me,to show HIS LOVE to people,and even strangers.God is so kind to me.Thus,it is my responsibility to show HIS love to people who needs it by being kind.Even if they don't need kindness,it's FREE.

* I was walking under the rain two days ago.A non-Christian girl (in fact she is a Muslim),asked me if I willing to be sheltered under her umbrella.And while I was walking with her,we talked.It was a brief conversation.But it made my day.Surprisingly,I did the same last month by sheltering a Muslim girl when It was pouring.She said that I was being kind.Now,I know how she felt when someone showed you kindness.*

When I posted ' I believe in kindness' in Facebook,someone told me 'What is the point of being kind to people when people is not kind towards you?'.I answered that ,'If kindness was all about being treated equally in everything you do,how can that be kindness?.For kindness is doing things without expectations..

Luke 6:35: But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked.

I believe in God's kindness.Through him,I can show people around me,His kindness.It's okay if they don't appreciate it,I am doing it for HIM because I know He will be smiling if I show kindness to people------even better to those who has no privileged tho enjoy kindness.

It always good when you are doing things that people don't normally practice..things that they don't even care....
















-Amazed-

POSTED ON: 28 March 2011 @ 10:25 PM | 0 comments

''This feeling,I couldn't expressed.Because now I know.I am still standing still.Was taking a stroll walking in a very slow pace with with the wind calming,leaves brushing,branches dancing,roof' drumming....and still standing still.''



-taken when I was walking slowly and enjoying the breeze-

I was taking a very very very slow stroll today.I was rather calm.It was drizzling.Rain poured on my face drop-by-drop.I did not think of assignment or any task to do.I was thinking for now, I know why God put me in Jazz Band.For seriously,today I see the reason of it even more.I am really touched by God.So touched.I couldn't express this.I wanted to say...

''Lord I give you my heart,and I will search for Yours even more''


He assured me that I made the right choice to stay in Jazz Band to surround me with people that open their hearts to me.It started with last semester and I am really happy with everything that is happening.I may not be talented in music but I will learn to endure the great music talent there.But,my heart is desire to do God's will.

There is one girl,Hing Yee.She was quite close to me.Not really close like pouring hearts to me.But we were close that we shared the same LOUD laughters.I was comfortable with her accompany with Laura.Today,we had September annual concert in Jazz Band and i was supposed to have my dinner with the other two girls but they left.I wanted to go back to my dorm and just skipped dinner.I saw her,playing drum.(*she don't really know how to play actually.^^)..

Then,we had dinner together.Then I started to ask how many siblings she is having.Then,she talked about her mom.I talked about mine too.And when I talked about my dad.She said,'MINE TOO'..I was rather taken aback.This girl who laughed cheerfully had this same incident as me.I felt totally like her out of sudden.Thus,I asked her ,'When was this happened?'...She said it was one month before entering the university last year.I wondered,'How strong was she?'

What made me actually started to be emotionally clung to this matter was when she cried!I was so touched.So touched by God's marvellous works that He put me in Jazz Band to console people who feels the way I felt,to show HIS love to people who is bitter,crying and need someone to listen to.Today,I really feel that I can really do something in Jazz Band.I do not what is my influence there.I do not know how well will I establish my relationship there.I do not how long will I stay there.But i will surrender to God this matter and He will provide me answer later like how HE did today.

I patted on her shoulder telling her , 'I understand.'



When I sat in the bus,I was thinking how my dad's death affect me so much.How this sad part of my life which I struggled that it led me to knowing another heavenly daddy.But honestly,I miss him.I miss my daddy,miss calling him,'Papi'.Sometimes,I do really feel incomplete in family because of his disappearance..But,those heart of missing of my 'Papi' is stored in my heart.



BUT TODAY!!!

Gaining the Love of JESUS CHRIST and his sacrifice changed me,to a better person..someone who if I was 'me',i would amaze by 'ME' now..

God is my provider and my strength.

Today,i learn that HE IS MY PROVIDER....I shall cast all my everything to HIM.=))

Psalm 59:16
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.

*Thank you for allowing me to serve you even more and show YOUR marvellous love through me to people who can open their hearts to U.Amen*


''The Story of Starfish''

POSTED ON: 27 March 2011 @ 11:51 PM | 0 comments


''One day,a man was walking on a beach and saw hundred of fishes on the beach.While he was walking on the beach he saw a boy.The boy was picking the starfish one by one and throw it back to the sea.Thus,the man said to the boy,'Why do you pick those starfish and throw it back to the sea knowing you can't throw all of them back?You know you can't made any difference.' The boy picked up a starfish and said this before he thrown it back into the sea,' I am sure I can make a difference with this one.''.

Today I learnt so much from my church.It was so awesome.Fam made her first trip here too.And I was really glad.^^

First I learnt that OUR LIFE IS SHORT.So short that it resembles the vapour.Who knows what could happen tomorrow?There were earthquakes,tsunami,floods..etc. It again emphasize on the shortness of our life.I really was really shocked when I know life isn't long.God gave us 24 hours per day which equivalent to 86,400 seconds per day.For we can't save it for the next day,neither can we freeze it.

Second,I learnt that we should MAKE THE MOST OF EVERY OPPORTUNITY.It really speaks to me.REALLY.Like sometimes I choose people to spend time.I always choose to spend time with people that really needs my ears.Like today,I spent time with my Jazzband senior,Jane who needs a listening ear.I am glad she said ,' I wish Jazz band has more people like U'..*me shy*...But I am really hoping that God can use me in Jazz Band even more for I know HE is using me.THIS HIGHLIGHT THE STORY ABOVE!!!!

''You can't make difference in hundreds of lives but YOU can make different in at LEAST ONE LIFE''...

God must have chosen YOU to touch someone's life..


Ephesians 2:10-For we are God's workmanship,created in Christ Jesus to do good works , which God prepared in advanced for us to do.


Do not WAIT to serve the LORD like,'I shall wait till i graduate and I will serve the LORD',for opportunity is everywhere.YOU will have to be AWARE of it.


Thirdly,LIVE WISELY!!!Too much commitment can rob away our TIME with GOD!!So,think of it!!

''How do we live our life?' 'What is IMPORTANT for ETERNITY?' 'What is your FOCUS?'

For we are expose with many things that grab away our attention from God,our loves one and those who need us to help them.Televisions,movies,games,gossips....

''Above all things ,GUARD your heart..because your heart is a well-spring of lif..thus,if your well spring of life is dirty,it's not going to be a treasure anymore..as it's dirty.''

Lastly,understand the WILL OF GOD.Knowing and understand the will of GOD are different.If you would like to the WILL of GOD,you will have to SURRENDER totally to HIM. For the Lord means 'The controller of my life'. Remember you can't have TWO drivers to drive a car.Thus,you will have to choose.Surrendering also do not mean GIVING UP here.

''Are we redeeming our time?''
''Are you there to help someone?''
'Are you there to listen to your children?''
''Are you there to summit your LIFE to HIM?''


*In the eyes of the Lord.Everyone is worthy of HIM to die*....

Are you willing to do the same too??


Easter Celebration 2011...*excited*

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''WHAT WAS I DOING??''

I did not save the previous blog...*OH NO*.....

Anyways,It's not difficult to write one sincere post,right???All you gotta do is to speak through your heart that will project through your words.

*I am the main character in sketch*

I was so happy when I knew I was chosen as the main character in skit.I was like ''seriously'.Despite the hectic schedule in Jazz Band due to performances in Convocation,God chose me.I remembered few years,I was supposed to be in a play for my church but because I couldn't attend the practice as often as I could,I did not participate in the end.But I know ONE FINE DAY,God will choose ME.

For most people,THIS IS NORMAL.BUT NOT FOR ME.I never really have this opportunity,you know.That's why I am truly glad I am in USM to shine for HIM,to be the one chosen to do all those things for him,to be more passionate for HIM,to let HIM has HIS way with me more with me,to learn to be a better Christian.God is more beautiful than ever.I am changed by HIS GRACE!!!!GOD is beautiful.

''God,thank YOU!! Thank you for your amazing works in my life.To use me.That's the most awesome.To choose me among the others like how u choose MOSES..despite his weakness.I have no words to express my feelings except my truly gratitude to save me since I was 15years old..Thank you,daddy..^^..Amen'.

Anyway,it was a combined Easter Celebration with CUS,LCWF and CLC,the other 3 other Christian Fellowship.How marvellous God uses USES all of US to do HIS marvellous job in USM.
The best part of the whole event was knowing people actually going back to HIM such as Fam.Truly,the feeling was real awesome.I was like so happy when Fam to me she wanted to go church.I can cry in JOY!!hahahaahahah... Some people like Chong told me he was touched.I really hope they will continue to sow their seed and not to forget that GOD always welcome them with a big hug and I will always be there to tell them that God loves them.Despites that,knowing that some hearts were opened.That was the best.Awwwww....Marvellous lar...

'SO WONDERFUL...COZ OF YOUR UNFAILLING LOVE'

Sometimes,GOD really make me awe in wonder.LIKE he is really awesome-lar!hahaha.Cannot express what I wanna say..HEHE..




''Easter Day Banner ''




'THIS IS US,CHILDREN OF GOD''





'WE ARE ALL FOR HIM..despite our craziness...LOL'



'CUS's performance'



'Our skit-Everything'



Abel the Money-Tempter, Stephanie the Model,Jessica the 'Devil', Michael a.k.a Jesus,Me,Monica the Drunkard,Joana Our Director for the Skit,Justin the Romeo and Bay,our Project Manager...^^


Everyone did their real best on that very day because they passionate for GOD.Not forgetting those who became ushers and handled the food,how they washed plates and those who carried the PA system and handled the technical system.Thank You all for glorifying God's name.God bless you all for you guys had done such a great JOB..wee...*me is happy now*


Psalm 66:3... "How awesome are your deeds! So great is your power that your enemies cringe before you.




The smell of your hair

POSTED ON: 20 March 2011 @ 6:42 PM | 0 comments

This could one of the most non-Christian related posts I am going to write in my uni life.

'The smell of your hair' is attributed to a guy who is more than a friend to me.He is like my best-friend.I liked him, but as we grow closer,I treated him like a real,good friend.Things changes between us,knowing he likes another girl.But,we became closer.I became the only place he told me,his feeling,frustrations,anxieties and everything.

I shall treat my best friend like everyone else.Yes,there must be boundaries.But as much he adores me,I adore him too.

'The smell of your hair' was actually the smell of his hair when we lied on each others' shoulder.The smell of his hair.The heart of mine that I am trying to control not to beat that rapidly when we lied on each others' shoulder.Perhaps it is because I don't want to be in one relationship which don't affirm God to be in the centre of our relationship.

'The smell of your hair' strongly highlight the trust in friendship.There is a thin line in making a best friend and being in G&B relationship. I believe mine is best-friend with little of feeling in it.

Couple days ago,I was facing dilemma with myself.Trying to convince myself that I do not like him.Yes, I do.I have feelings for him.Therefore,I need to check on myself that I shall not do something that I don't think it's alright.

Devil love to input those thinkings in Your mind,causing you to guilt about something.But God know all the efforts you are doing to withstand those temptations.As much as God loves me,He forgives me.=)))

That's the best thing about being a Christian.YOU DON'T CONDEMN yourself.

I believe in God.I believe that He wants me to abide in HIM!I know it might difficult to to have feeling for a best-friend.I have been there before.Thing is repeating its history again.But I shall just surrender to God.I know this might be super difficult to me.But I am growing in HIM now.

Psalm 71:20-21
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.


For I cast all my cries to Him,to surrender to Him.....and............
I will not deny myself for liking this best-friend of mine.





In the midst of confusion.

POSTED ON: 19 March 2011 @ 2:19 PM | 0 comments

Have you ever felt seriously 'deja-vu'?Seriously felt that things happened like repetitions?It is not very 'deja-vu' for me.It is just that i dont think I can face it again.Life is a path.Too many repetitions make my life seems to be kinda complicated.I do not know whether this is a test from God or something.In the past I may did it because I was a young Christian.But,now?I dont think i should be doing all over again.And what sadden me,it's a another path that I have to make choice between best friendship and temptations.

I am confused now.I can tell no one.Yes,to Lord.But to people around me?Those aches for five years seems to have leave a deep scars on me.I can't undergo anymore.

I never read the diary again.I promised not to be that again.But choices are hard to make.If only i could just surrender to the Lord.My heart doesn't tell me so.

It seems like in uni,things are complicated.I really i will undergo this with God's hand with me,telling me how to distinguish what is right and wrong.

p.s:why am I even involve in this?It wasn't my stuffs at first.




Just when I broke-down!

POSTED ON: 15 March 2011 @ 11:41 PM | 0 comments

Sometimes,I find so hard to tell people my feelings.To tell...it is so difficult.
Sometimes,I need a shoulder to cry one...To cry,it is so difficult.
Sometimes,I need a place to tell.....To find a place,who will listen?
Sometimes,no one listen....why?Because they don't have time or they don't want to listen?


And why;when they asked me whether I am alright..why do I smile?
Why do I said,'Nothing, don't worry' when all I need is comfort?
Why do I always listen to people knowing that my problems are not solved?
Why?

Because I am born like that.Because people trusted me.Because I am not open to people around me as my attitude could not always allow me to tell what I feel.Because.....

God wants me to depend on HIM!!!

Because no matter what,He is there!
Because He wants me to depend on HIM!
Because of His strength,my weakness is no compare...
That's why!!!

Because He loves ME and He wants to hold my hand!!!




For God is great!!

POSTED ON: 14 March 2011 @ 4:26 PM | 0 comments

Sometimes,it really pays when you become a mid-person of a complicated relationship. Sometimes,I really wonder should I even care?It is difficult at times.There are times I really feel bad.But I am really trying my best to help those around me.The joy of them is what that makes me happy.

I am caught in the middle of my good friend(it's a he) and a girl.Why is it so?I do not know.Trying to think as much as I can.But I don't want to him to lose faith in God.For he said to me that praying will not make those things go away but only ensure temporary ease of mind.But it's not like that.God gives hope but time is the matter.Am sad he couldn't see that God loves him so much.I believe God loves him more than I 'sayang' him.But was rather at ease when he said I am the only one he could brag to.

That's what that makes me continue to be for people when people tell me that they could pour their heart to me.It's amazing how they trusted me.

I think God gave me that very gifts. Sometimes I am caught in the middle because of that.But I am willing to be there just like God.I am really hoping God is using me to be there and draw back hearts to HIM.

I love people.

P.S:I talked to an auntie today who worked as a cleaner.Actually I love to talk to them.It reminds me of my mom...how my mom actually worked as a school cleaner to support me??

Dear:Lord
I just wanna express 'thanks'..million of thanks for putting me in USM.For I could realise my amazing gifts here.For you love me so much and u planned my life.Even though,I am so new in Christian Fellowship for I never have opportunity to shine for U.But I really do want to serve.I am so sorry for always so busy and not reading what you want for me---daily bread.But you have been real good to me.Always Always there for me.You never never forsake me!!O' God!!!!I will never never leave you because of U,I see the light of my life.I see my purpose.I see my gifts.I see my talents.I may have weakness.But in YOU,I am perfect.Thank you ,Lord for choosing me.Thank you,Lord.
In Jesus Name,Amen.

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