The smell of your hair
POSTED ON: 20 March 2011 @ 6:42 PM | 0 comments
This could one of the most non-Christian related posts I am going to write in my uni life.'The smell of your hair' is attributed to a guy who is more than a friend to me.He is like my best-friend.I liked him, but as we grow closer,I treated him like a real,good friend.Things changes between us,knowing he likes another girl.But,we became closer.I became the only place he told me,his feeling,frustrations,anxieties and everything.
I shall treat my best friend like everyone else.Yes,there must be boundaries.But as much he adores me,I adore him too.
'The smell of your hair' was actually the smell of his hair when we lied on each others' shoulder.The smell of his hair.The heart of mine that I am trying to control not to beat that rapidly when we lied on each others' shoulder.Perhaps it is because I don't want to be in one relationship which don't affirm God to be in the centre of our relationship.
'The smell of your hair' strongly highlight the trust in friendship.There is a thin line in making a best friend and being in G&B relationship. I believe mine is best-friend with little of feeling in it.
Couple days ago,I was facing dilemma with myself.Trying to convince myself that I do not like him.Yes, I do.I have feelings for him.Therefore,I need to check on myself that I shall not do something that I don't think it's alright.
Devil love to input those thinkings in Your mind,causing you to guilt about something.But God know all the efforts you are doing to withstand those temptations.As much as God loves me,He forgives me.=)))
That's the best thing about being a Christian.YOU DON'T CONDEMN yourself.
I believe in God.I believe that He wants me to abide in HIM!I know it might difficult to to have feeling for a best-friend.I have been there before.Thing is repeating its history again.But I shall just surrender to God.I know this might be super difficult to me.But I am growing in HIM now.
Psalm 71:20-21
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.
Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again.
For I cast all my cries to Him,to surrender to Him.....and............
I will not deny myself for liking this best-friend of mine.