Selfish.
POSTED ON: 26 March 2012 @ 12:12 AM | 0 comments
Have you ever feel the lost of friendship? A friendship that shared memories. I did. It is really saddening especially when I really tried my best keeping it. It is not we can't keep it. It just that..it just happened like that.
I don't wanna leave that friendship but I turned my back.Because I am a coward. I couldn't face the reality that our friendship changed. I stopped. I stopped looking out for that friend. I stopped what I used to do. I even pretended I did not care.To look away when that friend was in front of me.Like a stranger, I shun that friend away.Like a stranger, I stopped..our friendship,thinking maybe this is it.
Frankly saying, I couldn't face it. A part of me still wanting that old us. But I don't want to be disappointed again. But I miss that moments. When we cheered for football matches, when we behaved like kids ,when we were having some deep talk about God...*hmmm* Sometimes, it makes me wonder..'What would I say to that friend when we leave this university?'
I am sorry. It's not that I don't want .It's that I can't. Thinking that our friendship could be how it used to be when it is not. Maybe I cannot take changes. Maybe it's me being selfish. Sorry.
I don't know why God put me through this but I will understand one day. Even when it takes time to understand the reasons. But He knows more than I do. I rest it unto You.:) Heal the disappointments and the hurt that I have and make me stronger in You.:) Maybe one day I will have the strength to tell that friend face to face, I really do appreciate and 'sayang' our friendship even we are not that close anymore. And I do care for that friend till now even when I pretended I did not. One day. Maybe that graduation day. :)
'When you feel you are drowning in life situations,
your Life Guard walks on water.'
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Selfish.
POSTED ON: 26 March 2012 @ 12:12 AM | 0 comments
Have you ever feel the lost of friendship? A friendship that shared memories. I did. It is really saddening especially when I really tried my best keeping it. It is not we can't keep it. It just that..it just happened like that.
I don't wanna leave that friendship but I turned my back.Because I am a coward. I couldn't face the reality that our friendship changed. I stopped. I stopped looking out for that friend. I stopped what I used to do. I even pretended I did not care.To look away when that friend was in front of me.Like a stranger, I shun that friend away.Like a stranger, I stopped..our friendship,thinking maybe this is it.
Frankly saying, I couldn't face it. A part of me still wanting that old us. But I don't want to be disappointed again. But I miss that moments. When we cheered for football matches, when we behaved like kids ,when we were having some deep talk about God...*hmmm* Sometimes, it makes me wonder..'What would I say to that friend when we leave this university?'
I am sorry. It's not that I don't want .It's that I can't. Thinking that our friendship could be how it used to be when it is not. Maybe I cannot take changes. Maybe it's me being selfish. Sorry.
I don't know why God put me through this but I will understand one day. Even when it takes time to understand the reasons. But He knows more than I do. I rest it unto You.:) Heal the disappointments and the hurt that I have and make me stronger in You.:) Maybe one day I will have the strength to tell that friend face to face, I really do appreciate and 'sayang' our friendship even we are not that close anymore. And I do care for that friend till now even when I pretended I did not. One day. Maybe that graduation day. :)
'When you feel you are drowning in life situations,
your Life Guard walks on water.'
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