-Amazed-
POSTED ON: 28 March 2011 @ 10:25 PM | 0 comments
''This feeling,I couldn't expressed.Because now I know.I am still standing still.Was taking a stroll walking in a very slow pace with with the wind calming,leaves brushing,branches dancing,roof' drumming....and still standing still.''-taken when I was walking slowly and enjoying the breeze-
I was taking a very very very slow stroll today.I was rather calm.It was drizzling.Rain poured on my face drop-by-drop.I did not think of assignment or any task to do.I was thinking for now, I know why God put me in Jazz Band.For seriously,today I see the reason of it even more.I am really touched by God.So touched.I couldn't express this.I wanted to say...
''Lord I give you my heart,and I will search for Yours even more''
He assured me that I made the right choice to stay in Jazz Band to surround me with people that open their hearts to me.It started with last semester and I am really happy with everything that is happening.I may not be talented in music but I will learn to endure the great music talent there.But,my heart is desire to do God's will.
There is one girl,Hing Yee.She was quite close to me.Not really close like pouring hearts to me.But we were close that we shared the same LOUD laughters.I was comfortable with her accompany with Laura.Today,we had September annual concert in Jazz Band and i was supposed to have my dinner with the other two girls but they left.I wanted to go back to my dorm and just skipped dinner.I saw her,playing drum.(*she don't really know how to play actually.^^)..
Then,we had dinner together.Then I started to ask how many siblings she is having.Then,she talked about her mom.I talked about mine too.And when I talked about my dad.She said,'MINE TOO'..I was rather taken aback.This girl who laughed cheerfully had this same incident as me.I felt totally like her out of sudden.Thus,I asked her ,'When was this happened?'...She said it was one month before entering the university last year.I wondered,'How strong was she?'
What made me actually started to be emotionally clung to this matter was when she cried!I was so touched.So touched by God's marvellous works that He put me in Jazz Band to console people who feels the way I felt,to show HIS love to people who is bitter,crying and need someone to listen to.Today,I really feel that I can really do something in Jazz Band.I do not what is my influence there.I do not know how well will I establish my relationship there.I do not how long will I stay there.But i will surrender to God this matter and He will provide me answer later like how HE did today.
I patted on her shoulder telling her , 'I understand.'
When I sat in the bus,I was thinking how my dad's death affect me so much.How this sad part of my life which I struggled that it led me to knowing another heavenly daddy.But honestly,I miss him.I miss my daddy,miss calling him,'Papi'.Sometimes,I do really feel incomplete in family because of his disappearance..But,those heart of missing of my 'Papi' is stored in my heart.
BUT TODAY!!!
Gaining the Love of JESUS CHRIST and his sacrifice changed me,to a better person..someone who if I was 'me',i would amaze by 'ME' now..
God is my provider and my strength.
Today,i learn that HE IS MY PROVIDER....I shall cast all my everything to HIM.=))
Psalm 59:16
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.
*Thank you for allowing me to serve you even more and show YOUR marvellous love through me to people who can open their hearts to U.Amen*