Selfish.
POSTED ON: 26 March 2012 @ 12:12 AM | 0 comments
Have you ever feel the lost of friendship? A friendship that shared memories. I did. It is really saddening especially when I really tried my best keeping it. It is not we can't keep it. It just that..it just happened like that.I don't wanna leave that friendship but I turned my back.Because I am a coward. I couldn't face the reality that our friendship changed. I stopped. I stopped looking out for that friend. I stopped what I used to do. I even pretended I did not care.To look away when that friend was in front of me.Like a stranger, I shun that friend away.Like a stranger, I stopped..our friendship,thinking maybe this is it.
Frankly saying, I couldn't face it. A part of me still wanting that old us. But I don't want to be disappointed again. But I miss that moments. When we cheered for football matches, when we behaved like kids ,when we were having some deep talk about God...*hmmm* Sometimes, it makes me wonder..'What would I say to that friend when we leave this university?'
I am sorry. It's not that I don't want .It's that I can't. Thinking that our friendship could be how it used to be when it is not. Maybe I cannot take changes. Maybe it's me being selfish. Sorry.
I don't know why God put me through this but I will understand one day. Even when it takes time to understand the reasons. But He knows more than I do. I rest it unto You.:) Heal the disappointments and the hurt that I have and make me stronger in You.:) Maybe one day I will have the strength to tell that friend face to face, I really do appreciate and 'sayang' our friendship even we are not that close anymore. And I do care for that friend till now even when I pretended I did not. One day. Maybe that graduation day. :)
'When you feel you are drowning in life situations,
your Life Guard walks on water.'
your Life Guard walks on water.'
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Asmackontheface!
POSTED ON: 24 March 2012 @ 3:04 AM | 0 comments
"If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn't do it, it is sin for them." James 4:17 (NIV)Wow!!Was reading today's devotion and it's a *Smackontheface*.Perhaps it's a reminder from Him.:(.Sorry,Lord.:'( I will try my best,okay? Please guide me. Thank you,Lord.
Butterfly!:)
POSTED ON: 20 March 2012 @ 4:36 AM | 2 comments
Today I wanna talk about butterfly.I heard about it in one of the sermons so I decided to share about it in this blog!:)
A butterfly transformed from a cocoon.:)What's a cocoon?According to Wikipedia,a cocoon is a PUPA which is known as the life stage of some insects UNDERGOING TRANSFORMATION!
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| *The transformation of cocoons* |
We,Christians are BUTTERFLIES that transformed from COCOONS that was formerly CATERPILLARS!
2nd Corinthians 5:17
Therefore if ANYONE is in CHRIST,he is a NEW CREATION;the OLD has done,the NEW has come!
The fact is butterflies have freedom to fly while caterpillars do not have.So,we are not caterpillar with wings.We are truly butterflies. You were under the control of sins but now YOU ARE FREE as Jesus Christ had died for YOU!Therefore,You are of NEW IDENTITY!
But what amazed me was...
'Why a butterfly that had changed to a butterfly still behave like a caterpillar?
Why are we still behaving like a sinner when we are already have Christ in US?
Sometimes we live as in we are having the casing of the cocoons and forget we are already a butterfly.The fact that we still have FLESH (our body,old memory,old habits) ,it's tempting us to lead the old ways,to live like how we want and not live the way He wants for us.
A good example would be sexual desire where it is to be satisfied.The flesh would want it so badly that it leads to problems such as pornography addiction but the FLESH satisfaction is only for a period of time.Therefore,we will watch pornography videos again when the need/desire reoccur again.
So,cast this needs unto Lord because He can supply it. In Him,all the needs can be supplied!:)
So,cast this needs unto Lord because He can supply it. In Him,all the needs can be supplied!:)
Philippians 4:19
But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.
So live like a butterfly and not caterpillar.Do not call yourselves 'A worm/caterpillar with wings'..coz you are a butterfly as You are transformed in Him. Run to Him if you have needs that need to satisfied/supplied and not do it in YOUR own way!:) He'll be there because our GOD WILL WORK,CHANGE and TRANFORM You!:)
John 1:12-13
Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.
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| The butterfly so pweety!!:) |
Grateful Heart
POSTED ON: 05 March 2012 @ 2:23 AM | 0 comments
Just got back from PKA Family Camp. Actually volunteered to be in charge in the Program and Prayer. Learnt so much about importance of prayers and how it actually connects me to God.The process of making this camp,a good camp-I’ve learnt to submit it unto Him. Try to do things His way and not mine.Just tried my best and He will do the rest.
Been constantly selfish before this camp. Had kept myself in the room, pondering what’s the cause of my decrease rate of capacity of loving people. Found the causes. Expectations is one of the main reasons.:) But God taught me a lesson-His faithfulness. It was a great lesson. That He will continue to shower His Love upon me even when I do things my own way. Even when I turn my back and couldn’t lift up my head to see Him in my life.
It’s remarkably awesome that He made me different. I don’t know how to explain what happened.Just ‘Thank you Lord for everything.THANK YOU!!’
Psalm 36:5
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies.
Psalm 36:5
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies.
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