The Cute is BACK! HAHAHAHAHA!
POSTED ON: 12 August 2014 @ 12:09 AM | 0 comments
Hiii! (flowers for YOU!!!!) It had beeeennnn like soooo long since I penned down my thoughts and my life in this blog. "Welcome back" to me! Lappie spoilt for second time too. Hence, the delay! :) There were many changes in life ---- not really dramatic though. HAHAHA!
1. I am officially a car driver.
Yeah, you heard me. I have a car! *Praise the Lord*. But I am really in an initial stage of driving that my student who I was fetching was frightened when I fetched him back home. However, I have to say... prayers are really needed for someone like me. So, it is a good platform to really place my trust in Lord and a patience-learning platform.
2. I quit my job.
I know. I know! Surprisingly, I did! Now I am on my way to be a relief teacher in government public school. To support myself in this unemployed season, I have some freelance tuition with a couple of students. So yeah, I can't spend much but I just need to spend wisely.
3. I want to be involved in church.
Enough of excuses of not doing this or doing that. I think it is not matter of time (because I thought of not staying put in Melaka for long), it is matter of willingness. I also believe in this season of 'not-wanting-to-involve-in-anything', I learnt human can come up with any excuses for things they not want to do. And when we do that, we are really making decisions ourselves without putting Lord into our decisions. I do believe that involvement of church is important in a Christian's life. Not so much of displaying you are a Christian, but as an act of obedience to the Lord and a testimony for other Christians to follow.
4. I AM GOING TO BE BAPTISED!
I saved the best for the last. So, there you go! I will be baptised and I am very excited. Nine years and at last! I was asked the meaning of baptism by a brother in church. I told him it was 'Dying of old self , burial of sin and rising as a new self with Christ ; Not as slave of sin but slave of righteousness'. Yeah, it is correct. But when he told me it is also UNION / ONENESS with God, I thought for a while. I mean I really thought for a while. I was thinking 'Why would God want to be ONE with a sinner like me?'. I know it is because of love. But it is just that I cannot comprehend the MASSIVENESS of his love for me.Like WOW!I am thankful I am loved. :')
THAT'S ALL for now! I am reading ' In The Grip of Grace' by Max Lucado (which took me months! Come on Fong Wan!!) and I wanna share this:
"You are saved, not because what you do but because of what Christ did. And you are special, not because of what you do , but because of whose you are . And you are HIS. And because we are His, let's forget the shortcuts and stay on the main road. He knows the way. He drew the map. He knows the way home."
Labels: adventure, blessed, firm, Jesus, personal, update
Planned-out Plans!
POSTED ON: 04 April 2014 @ 11:30 AM | 0 comments
Been planning out life, but nothing goes according to what I planned. I guess I am frustrated and disappointed. Not once but a few. But but but, I learnt lessons through this season.1) I always want to be god of my life.
I love planning and want things my ways. Rather than just submitting it to God, I choose to plan my life and how I should live, forgetting this life is supposed to be a worship unto the Lord. Well, I am kinda like making my life a worship for myself. So much of self-fulfillment , isn't it? Totally forgotten, that I was already dead but made alive in Christ, supposingly my new life is a platform/tool/ agent/ ambassador ( u name it) of Christ.
2. Don't always ask God for a YES as answer rather asking God for His will.
One thing about the selfish me is that I always want God to answer my prayers. Like 'I wanna do this', 'Give me this', 'Grant me this' and 'Help me with this' rather than, 'O'Lord, answer my prayer according to Your will, that no matter answers You give, I will accept it knowing You are a sovereign God.' I also realised I always prepare myself for the good result but not the bad result. So I have learnt I need to always prepare for a NO answer knowing that my God is GOOD.
3. My God really really really sees things in bigger picture. (like way bigger and awesomer)
I see my future with my eyes and want it the way I think it is good. But I believe that God have better and way awesome plans for me if only I am willing to submit in His ways. Like seriously. I just have to trust that He is going to use me greatly, no matter how blurry is the road in front of me. I just gotta trust in my Dad. 'Give me life in Thy ways' ... I learned that in camp and I am so going to practice it. :)
Last but not least, I was watching this movie 'The Tree of Life' and there was this quote in the movie which left quite an impact on me.
The nuns taught us there are two ways through life … the way of Nature… and the way of Grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. Grace doesn't try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy... when all the world is shining around it... when love is smiling through all things.
(2 Corinthians 5 :14-15) For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.
Labels: adventure, blessed, Jesus, journey, life, personal
When Life is Not the Way It Seems to Be.
POSTED ON: 26 January 2014 @ 3:30 PM | 0 comments
| Because life is not the way I wanted, Because I am lost, Because I feel like a loser, I went away. I went away, Finding my own strength, Seeking my own directions, Trusting in my own choices. Trusting myself, Trusting everything else, Except the One who created me, The One who loved and is still loving me. The One who whispered, 'Come to me', 'Come, don't harden your heart.' 'Come to me, my precious.' 'Come!' But, time and time again, I trusted myself, I went away, Because life is not the way I wanted. And I stopped. |
Because life is not the way I wanted, Because I am lost, Because I feel like a loser, I come again. I come again, Finding Your strength, Seeking Your will, Trusting in You. Trusting in You, And not everything else, Only You, the One who created me, The One who loved and is still loving me. The One who never stop loving, Waiting, correcting Molding, rebuking, I am indeed Your precious. Because I am Your Precious, This time, Trusting in You, I come again Because I would never even found a LIFE without You. And I come. |
Labels: family, God, journey, life, personal, tough
Self-Discovery
POSTED ON: 07 January 2014 @ 12:46 AM | 0 comments
Coming back to this place, I've learnt even more about myself, family and really really about myself. I guess the most tragic thing about a human is not willing to take step to correct oneself after knowing the flaws or mistakes. The reasons? Fear or ignorance? Or both?
I used to ask why Dr Jekyll wants to be separate his evil side. I mean why cannot he just accept that a human comprises good and evil and correct himself from there. But I think now, I understand why Dr Jekyll chose to do that. Sometimes the truth that how far we can go with our bad thoughts or actions surprises us. It made us, dislike ourselves.
But I guess life is a long journey of life-discovery. The great thing with all the bad things you are facing is that it make you understand the others really well. It made you sympathize with them and be in their shoes because you were once there. I learnt to understand most of the times, because I was there.
But after everything that I faced, and am still facing...I know that there is always hope. Hope is the only source where change can takes place. If hope comes from faith in God, then God is the only source where change can takes place.
Labels: journey, life, personal
Work.
POSTED ON: 09 October 2013 @ 8:29 PM | 1 comments
''Work''
Sometimes, I stopped and think..'Is this what you want to do for the rest of your life...work?' ; 'Do you find pleasure in working?'I can answer a definite 'NO!' for the first question and clueless about the second answer! Sometimes I struggled with 'Is this what you really want to do?'I don't know how people can make it. How older workers work the whole time in their life and manage their time. I am so much younger and sometimes I am just so exhausted.
I think I just want to find meanings in the things I do in my life. I know the source of the meaning is God. And I know the road of being a teacher itself is not easy. So much to learn to be a dedicated teacher .
'One step at a time.'
Also, it had been a little hard to keep in touch with friends but please note that you all are always in my hearts. You don't know how many times I read those letters/notes you gave. You don't know how many times I scrolled Facebook pictures to see us.
But, I just gotta move on. Told myself I needed six month..so it's till March to be in some 'dreamy' moods. I also find that life is not stagnant. Meeting new people and moving to another place are always parts of life that constantly reminds us to live to the fullest in our present and do our best for the Lord and the people around us in that point of our lives.
And no matter, I still got Jesus with me. :)
Labels: blessed, God, personal, thoughts
I want to teach...
POSTED ON: 28 September 2013 @ 9:46 PM | 1 comments
I want to teach...
Not because it is the easiest job,
Not because I want to earn easy bucks,
Not because 'Those that cannot make it, they teach.'
Not because I can shout at students,
And feel powerful when they listen to me.
I want to teach...
Because I want to make differences in my students,
Emotionally and physically,
Because I want to tell them , 'You can do it!'
Because I want to believe that each one of them can be molded,
And gives hopes when things seems hopeless.
I want to teach...
Not because teaching is fun,
It is not because sometimes it can wear me down,
Emotionally and physically,
But because these children,
They are teaching me lessons too,
And believe that God is teaching me through them.
And because of all these, I will continue to learn and teach.
Labels: God, personal, school, teach, thought
Giver.
POSTED ON: 11 September 2013 @ 11:27 PM | 0 comments
As I was praying with the sisters in church, I was really convicted by this word, 'Giver'. I think I am blinded by the money that I am earning. I think that the salary I am earning , it is not enough. Therefore, I am giving tuition to students from my school. I was given two students. And I wanted more. I think 'money' eventually blinded me in the process of having more. And with the assumed sum of money that I am going to earn, I started to plan what I want to achieve in this one year. I can tell you the plans that I have, it is so self-oriented. For example, going to New Zealand for work and travel.I did not ask God about this. I just decided that I wanna save up for it. Because I just want to do it. And now I have two students that I am going to give tuition to and it gonna take up Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. And I am already foresee weariness. Somehow promise is a promise.
I ask myself sometimes, 'Why are you doing this, Fong Wan?Why?' I can tell you honestly that I am doing all of these not for family, not for people around me... but for me. Then today, I realised I became selfish! So selfish and so self-oriented , I forgot and lost my identity as a daughter of Christ that gives. And I couldn't recognise the giver I used to be.
But today I am reminded again the ultimate reason I came back to this place is to give, to minister to my mother, brother, sister and people around me. And also to see God and witness His goodness in times of difficulties. In camp, I drew God was walking with me along the hills, up and down. Now I understand why I drew that. Because life is not easy but God promised He would walk with me.
I don't want to give out of convenience but I wanna be a greater giver that give in times of inconvenience because that would mean so much more, with Him and for Him.
Because my Jesus gave and still giving, I am giving too!
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Labels: beautiful, family, God, home, personal
Because of Ah Phang!
POSTED ON: 04 August 2013 @ 5:36 PM | 0 comments
It is Sunday again. But today, PKA's new batch Excos are here to do Committee Retreat Planning (CPR). It always really really nice to see these faces of darlings in the church. But even with that short meet-up, I am already so delighted but also with a little bit swollen heart inside of me.
Then, I also received this gift from a friend of mine in Penang. I cried. Why? Because when I read the card, I am feeling exactly what she is feeling. I miss her . I miss people whom I 'sayang' in USM. I think when I came back to this home of mine, I came back with 'compare mindset' Even with family, I was thinking, 'My friends in Penang would do this, why can't them?'
I cannot deny it will take a little bit more time to let go of the previous chapter that God had blessed me with. I am gonna miss the people that I used to be with so much.So so much. Sometimes my tears fell itself when I thought of it, without realising. But I am not going to allow all of these to hinder His works in my life in Melaka. I am gonna embrace these emotions but will work together hand-in-hand with grace with my Father.
It will take time but My Father is here with me. :')
Dear Ah Phang, I miss you. :') You know I actually cried when I read that. Thank you for your continuous encouragement and love even though we are far apart. Never knew why I deserve a friend like you till now. I will always bring Donkey wherever I go to remember God's goodness in my life because He gave me friend like you. I may not see you that often anymore which actually secretly sadden me, but I will try my best okay? I really cant wait to see you again in September. Arr, I am tearing again. But you know how much you meant to me. Even though we are far apart , but you are always CLOSE to my heart. Distance is not a problem when we have the heart , love and effort. :) Me sayang YOU a lot. :')
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| These are my reactions when I got the Donkey! This is for YOU, AH PHANG!
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And once again, I am thankful for all the things You have done, my Lord.
Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come
Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come
I will never understand how wide, deep and great is Your love for me. But I am thankful for everything EVERYTHING You have done for me in the past, the blessings You poured unto me, My Lord.. Because of what You did, I am able to stand before you and have a personal relationship with you. Thank you for taking in all unpleasing character of mine and wanting to mold me even though I am unworthy. Thank you for loving me, for a wretch like me. Thank you for dying for me. :')
Labels: bestfriend, blessed, friendship, God, journey, love, personal, sister
Give me Life in Thy Ways.
POSTED ON: 23 July 2013 @ 3:09 PM | 1 comments
I am back from Cameron Camp 2013. Couldn't believe that I endured three weeks of cold weather. It was really really really a good experience to deal with obstacles in life. I came in to Cameron Camp , wanted to be equipped with God's Word. But well, I guess Daddy got another plan for me. He wanted to me to be ME!Weird huh? I guess when I accepted Jesus Christ as my saviour..I forgot that He wanted to love me for who I am. Never did I know that all He want is to ACCEPT ME for who I really am. All I look forward is to please Him with the best that I can and neglecting my weaknesses and do not embrace the fact that I am FONG WAN, the one who also know life hurts.
Because of the obstacles of life which made me stronger but it also resulted me to ignore things that allow me to appear 'weak' to others. Because of that, I never wanted to share during my first week in camp. But I learnt to share to the Lord whom love me for who I am even though it was really difficult. Because I know deep inside of me, it was worth it.
After attending camp, indeed one of the crucial answers were answered. I remembered asking God, 'I am willing to give up everything for you, even to go to the end of earth for you...why are you not sending me?' But now I know it is because I never know how to be a daughter to serve Him, but rather a servant that want to serve Him with all my strengths forgetting to embrace my weaknesses too.
And that was the most important thing I have learnt in Cameron Camp. I know in me, I am not strong enough to endure this life with so many obstacles that going to tear me down, but I am going to stand firm in my Daddy who is going to cry, walk , smile, sit and comfort me whenever I know I cannot do it.
Funny how God always have another way to awaken you from your mistakes. But well, He is after-all the Creator and knew me while I was in mommy's womb...Thank you, Dad! Thank you for wanting to love me and showing me grace despite knowing I will fail you. :'))))))
Labels: blessed, cameron, camp, Daddy, God, personal
REAL HOPE from hopelessness.
POSTED ON: 06 May 2013 @ 11:20 PM | 0 comments
We lost. It felt like hope was gone. Seriously. For a minute there, I really felt like crying. But I was in my friend's house and I held it in. My heart and dreams seemed to shatter into pieces. Suddenly there were rumors about new boxes of ballot papers coming in. What was told about the opposition winning was gone in just one hour of recounting. That was all. One hour of recounting demolished the hope and dreams we waited since 8pm.I cried and prayed to God. Talked to my friends on 'Whatsapp', expressed my dissatisfaction. Psalm 91: 2 : I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress; My God in Him I trust.' came to me. Held on to the verse and went to sleep with a prayer. And yet, when I woke up I saw some articles, posts and comments on Facebook that made me boiled inside of me. How injustices just happened in front of me? How corrupted this country? How I was really angry inside of me that this is the government that going to rule the country? How long will it be till the next election? How can this happened? Why did the evil prevails? How can hope become hopeless in such a short time?
I thought to myself so long. I am dwelling in my hopelessness and my anger towards injustices that I am blinded that I still got a GOD, that is the LORD of this nation. I remembered praying before election that no matter what will the result be, I shall rest in HIM. But where is my rest? One day of dwelling in sadness is enough. I told myself that I will move on from this. Picking up the broken pieces and march towards the justice, free and fair election that my God is planting.
And thinking back of what I've asked.
Yes , injustices happens but my God is a GOD of JUSTICE . He will not stand still and not do something. He is doing something big for this country. His time is always right. And I will have to learn to submit unto His timing. Yes, this country is corrupted but you are not, Fong Wan. You shall not dwell in anger and curse with negative words that are ungodly.Yes, you can be angry with the government, but they are still your government . Learn to respect the authority.Yes, next five years seem like a long way to go but please prepare yourself while anticipating for the next election. Don't give up! NO, Evil doesn't prevail. You are wrong. God prevails. His goodness prevails. Yes, hope become hopelessness in a short time but hopelessness can turn into hope in long time too.
I only waited for 4 hours to witness my hope being crashed but some leaders waited so long. The people of Israelites waited for so long too before Jesus, the Messiah, came. God knows what HE is doing. :)
Time to rise, people. Our country, Malaysia still needs us to fight for her. With that, I carved in my heart 'I still love nation and will not give up because God loves this nation and He is not giving up on this nation. If He did not, neither should I.' The biggest lesson I learned is to place my hope not in men, but GOD.
And in fact, we won. We won because our votes are clean. We won because we are upright. We won because we stood united. We won because our love for this nation. We won because we did not give up. And because of that, we won the real honest victory.
Indeed, I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress;
My God in Him I trust.'
My God in Him I trust.'
Labels: election, God, hope, justice, Malaysia, personal
The BEST!!!
POSTED ON: 25 April 2013 @ 10:51 AM | 0 comments
Giving your BEST to God.
This is my quote that going to stay with me for this week or till I learn to apply this in my life. I learnt that I have been taking this life for granted, always finding excuses for myself to do what is Second best. I am delightful that I am finally grasping this truth that in whatever and no matter what I do, I shall do my BEST for Him. It will save a lot of procrastination, time and not taking things for granted. I don't want to serve half-heartedly and live my life not as a champion. I want to live my as a champion for God, to win for Him, to serve Him in everything I do...I shall do my very BEST..!
Colossians 22-25: Servants, do what you’re told by your earthly masters. And don’t just do the minimum that will get you by. Do your best. Work from the heart for your real Master, for God, confident that you’ll get paid in full when you come into your inheritance. Keep in mind always that the ultimate Master you’re serving is Christ. The sullen servant who does shoddy work will be held responsible. Being a follower of Jesus doesn't cover up bad work. (P/S: I love the MSG translation)
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*hwaiting Fong Wan*
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*hwaiting Fong Wan*
Labels: bless, God, motivation, personal, quote
King of Love.
POSTED ON: 31 March 2013 @ 4:34 PM | 0 comments
Received salvation the day after Blessed Easter 8 years. Reason? Because at that time, I have no hope, nothing to hold on, no one to turn to. And then I went to this play on Easter Day and I saw this man who was beaten, bleed and risen from grave. I am like , ' Who is this man? He is blameless and why He did this?'This is the Jesus Christ, the God of the religion that my family asked me not to convert myself. In my thought, I was thinking, 'Isn't this man good. Why mommy and daddy asked me not to believe in Him?'. I did not ask much on why, what, should I this or that ... I know the next day after the play, I prayed a simple prayer. I said to Him, ' You have given me hope that I've been hoping for. You took away things I've been struggling.I don't know what I should do but I know that You are real like I can sense you and I want to know you.'
In a blink of an eye, it's EIGHT years now and I must say, this God of mine.. He is so faithful to me that sometimes I cannot take it. I meant, if I have to face with me.. I would just give up on me. But He did not give up.
That's the truth of Christianity, that Jesus Christ was resurrected on the cross because God never gave up on us. He sent His son to redeem us from sin, to give us the gift of Grace, to conquer wages of sin which is Death and give us everlasting Life that was already paid on the cross.
Today, I stand before the Worship in church.. singing 'Hallelujah, My God is a RISEN King.' . In my heart, I am really joyful that IT IS FINISHED. He is RISEN! It is done , my dear friend. No more. No more this and that. DONE!
Because Jesus DIED and He ROSE again!
The ultimate truth is that , It is all about Jesus Christ's resurrection. It is the part that gives you hope and reason to live.
Let me tell u a secret ..
If Jesus can die for you, what makes you think that He will give up on you? Why He came down to Earth and give up His life for you..shed His blood for you..? For what?
Because.. He loves you . He never want to give up on You. He LOVES YOU, my dear friend.
'At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was she'd for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now '
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now '
Roman 5:9-11
9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through Him! 10 For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to Him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! 11 Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.
Labels: beautiful, faith, faithfulness, God, love, personal
God-centered or Self-centered?
POSTED ON: 30 March 2013 @ 5:40 PM | 0 comments
''God-centered or Self-centered?''
A question to ponder upon. In life, I think humility could be one of the hardest lessons one could ever learned. To boast of yourself of the things you had done, or to boast of God's things for He had done it through you.
It is okay to be delighted or even proud of something you did because of the gifts God had given you. But it is not right to declare it publicly so that you gain attention from others , or to gain acknowledgement from others that you did it very well. I meant, what is the intention of your heart?
To find the delights from the acknowledgement from men, or to find the delights that God had used you as vessel, that you should give thanks to Him.
Jeremiah 9: 23-23: This is what the LORD says ' Let not the wise boast of their wisdom, or the strong boast of strength, or the rich boast of their riches, but let the one who boasts boast about this that they have the understanding to know me, that I am the LORD , exercise kindness, justice and righteousness on earth, for in these I delight,' declares the Lord.
Labels: faith, God, life, personal, random, thought
Dance and sing around me.
POSTED ON: 17 March 2013 @ 1:59 AM | 0 comments
''You dance over me,
While I am unaware.
You sing all around,
But I've never hear a sound.''
This song always always always remind me how FAITHFUL is my God. He is so mighty and so great but He dance and sing around me. Who am I that He choose to dance and sing around me? But ... He just does.
This song reminds me, how I can be so focus with my problems without realising that He is always around me , always so inviting, always so accepting, always so loving...
This song reminds me that God will never stop loving me even with the flaws and weaknesses that I have. That He is willing to just accept it the way it is, and love me the way I am. From there, He is willing to hold my hand and correct me, taking the flaws one by one and journey with me with who I really am.
''What you think you are doesn't stop God from loving you.'
''How wide,
How deep,
How great,
is Your Love for me...''
And yes, Lord...
I am amazed by...how You love me.
Roman 5: 7-8 ; Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this : While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Labels: beautiful, faithfulness, God, love, personal, random, thought
Type of Friend
POSTED ON: 10 January 2013 @ 3:59 AM | 1 comments
In the middle of studyingI thought to myself
'What type of friend do you want to be?'
I know 'this-and-that' happened,
It is not that I wanna break our friendship,
Even though I am at risk of it
Risking away of our friendship
But if this what a real friend should do
I will do it.
I am not judging
I am not taking you away
I am not jealous
Simply, I just love u as a friend
Let's hope
One day when you look back
Through your life
You will know that
It was simply out of LOVE that I am doing this
As I always do.
Proverbs 27:17 Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.
Labels: friendship, God, life, personal, thought, tough
Patience. :)
POSTED ON: 23 December 2012 @ 10:26 PM | 3 comments
I still remember when I was 9 or 10 , I was sitting at the back seat of the bicycle where my mother bring me home from school. On the way, I saw a 16 or 17 girl sitting at the back seat of the bicycle just like what I did, where her mother was cycling her to a destination.Me: Mom, that girl is big enough to sit at the back of bicycle. Why her mother still want to carry her on the back?
Mother: By the time you reach that age, I will also carry you on the bicycle too, just like that mother.
Today my mom fetched me to church , not on bicycle but on motorcycle . But, I was really delighted. Really really do. I never thought that she will 'carry' me to church and I am 22 now.
For a mother who used to oppose her daughter not to go church,now she is sending her daughter to one. The joy in me is..indescribable. She must have starting to accept that I want to be a Christian.
It is really marvelously touching to see how God journeyed with me through this. How He already know that this day will happen as long as I am patient with His timing and how He wants me to endure this with faith and prayers.
Thank you, God.
:')
Labels: faith, God, happy, personal
Jumps!
POSTED ON: 21 December 2012 @ 3:54 AM | 0 comments
Three friends,
Were jumping,in their final year.
Three friends,
Knew each other since the first year.
Three friends,
Of different personalities, different backgrounds.
Three friends,
Have grown so much in each's beautiful ways.
Time flies...
But three friends,
will be jumping till the end of their third year.
Together...
As three friends.
Labels: faithfulness, friendship, God, personal, random
Happy.smiles.sad.
POSTED ON: 20 December 2012 @ 2:51 AM | 0 comments
'Why are you so happy all the time?'
'Why do u smiles all the time?'
'Do you feel sad before?'
Yes. I do feel sad. Not all the time. Sometimes. Because I am a human. But I don't linger in my sadness. I ask God to help me. I pray. I know I have God by my side.
Why am I happy? Because what is the point of being sad? Life is just awesome to be sad. Yeah , I know things are hard at times. So what? It's LIFE. :) It's a journey, remember? There are rocks on the road, where u could stumble upon when you are on a journey.
Why do I smile all the time? Because smiles can make others smile too? Smiles are gifts. :)
What is the secret of my joy or happiness?
It's GOD!!
As when I fall, I have God to hold on unto!!
I know, no matter what happen, He is with me. Even right now, as I write this.. He is with me! Even right now, as YOU read this, God is with you.
God loves you, yo! :)
“Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me”( Psalm 23: 4)
Labels: faith, God, personal, random
Blessed...
POSTED ON: 17 December 2012 @ 3:50 AM | 0 comments
HELLO!!! I am Tham Fong Wan , in case you have not know me! I 'm daughter on God , was born on 11 December 1990. SOooo, I am officially 22 years old. I am still very much a child in my heart. I hope so. HAHA. I wanna take this time to thanks EVERYONE that wished me and took their time out to celebrate this AWESOME day with me!!
"Make thankfulness your sacrifice to God...' Psalm 50:14
I would like to thank my GOD for loving me!! For choosing to die for wretch like me. And He gave me so many abundant blessings in my life that sometimes I questioned, 'Do I even deserve this?' . Be it in my family, friends or just daily blessings such as safety while walking back home to dorm. I, thank you Lord for everything You've done for me. :') It's really a GREAT GREAT pleasure to know you, My GOD! *Yays* *Jumps*
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And so I started the celebration of my birthday with the Jazz Banders because we had Appreciation Night for Concert and thus, they celebrated King Hui's , Alvin's and my birthday. Threesome!!!
*ROAR* ( I'm a lion!! hahahaha)
Birthday for three!!!
It was simple. BUT BUT BUT it was these people that made it awesome! These people, I've already said so much about them on previous post. They are just awesome like that. Thank you God for them in my life. They maybe non-christian, but You've showed me your love through them. Thank you for them, Lord
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When I came back from my room , I received 'Whatsapps' from PHANG CARMEN!!! And she wrote about me again!! ON her personal BLOG!! *TWICE*. Yeah, you've heard me! TWICE! And she is such a darling to me, you know. SOooooo sweet of her for doing that!! This is the link, 'Happy Birthday, Tham Fong Wan' . In case you don't know how she looks like...
Ta-daaaaaaaaaaa!!
Dear Phang Carmen @ Ultraman Bobo @ Spongebob,
It's a greater blessing for me to know you. You've taught me so much for going extra miles for me and for people around you. You've did so well in your position now, that when I looked back when you asked me whether you should take it... I really can feel God's BIG plan for you. I am so happy that you are doing His wills and works in USM. And so even happier and blessed to know as a person. Thank you for supporting me when I didn't know what to do, providing me His love and cares when a sanguine like me turned into a melancholy. You are awesome, PHANG CARMEN!! HEHEHEHE!!
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Then, on my birthday itself...in the morning, I've celebrated it with MR WILSON KHOR!! Huhhhhhhhh!! Must be wondering who is that ,right?? This man is an angel. Yeah, he is! He is the one that always taught me to see things in really different perspectives and I am really glad I have the opportunity to be close to him enough to talk to him. He is rare jewel, only can be discovered if you take a step closer to him.
Thank you, Mr Wilson!! For EVERYTHING. You are indeed someone who always there for me despite your works. You are like an angel , you know. Always there, standing by! Thank you for your attention and concern upon me. We may be very different but I am really glad we have the same GOD! Thanks bro for getting me the 'Roti Bakar & Eggs & Coffee' in Bayan Lepas with you. I was so glad we made it even though we were lost. HEHEHE!!
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In the afternoon, MATTHEW Kang and AUDREY Wong celebrated my birthday in this heavenly western-like cafe that made my jaw dropped. It was awesome, you know! And I always enjoyed their company. Audrey Wong is just a special soul like that. AND MATTHEW KANG, he is a really kind man!! SO SOOOOO glad that both of them are my course-mates. Can't really imagine live without them!! Thank you God for Matthew and Audrey as coursemates!
That's Me, Audrey and Matt . (From left to right) . HAHA
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At night, I celebrated with PKA-ians!!! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! With LOK-LOK!! What is LOK-LOK?? You can see the picture below!
It's a steamboat-styled buffet dinner that tasted so good! WAHHH!!! I was so glad. SOooo full. Then, we had BLACKBALL as dessert! *Yipppee*.I, sincerely thanks everyone that came that day ; Phang Carmen, Jacquelline Ooi , James Teoh , Sze Jie , Wai Quan and Nicolas! Thank you so much for all the treats and laughter!
James Teoh , Phang Carmen , Jacquelline (Top: Left to right)
Nicolas Ng, Me , Sze Jie (Below: Left to right)
Waiquan!! (I am going to the next level!! YAYS..hahaha)
PKA!!! It stands for Persaudaraan Kristian Agape! WOW! To think about this family, it is too overwhelming. I still remember coming in , the first year to now, how everything had changes. I find it amazing how God laid his personal hands to equip and grow PKA members and still laying. Seniors that had gone, they taught me so much. Even Monica Khoo, she had graduated but she called me just to wish me! Nicolas Ng, my junior played ukulele and sang for me ON THE PHONE . *How sweet*... HAHAHA!
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After that, I went to Queensbay to watch birthday-movie with ELYSSA , MARY , SHIN AI, ALVIN and CAIN!! We watched Life of PI! They ended up asking me about the movie which was funny ! But I was so glad I can spend my birthday with them! They are sweet people, really! Mary and Elyssa are dear to my heart. Alvin and Shin Ai. (ahemmnn). Blessed Birthday to you too, Alvin! HAHAHA:) Thank you Cain! :)
Thank you so much, FIVE of you!!! Be here, ALWAYS!:)
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Midnight Hangout with Miyeko in her room was the last agenda on my birthday itself. Feel good. Like old times. One of my treasured friends . Knew her since orientation week. This particular semester was difficult season for me and her. It tested my friendship with her - how I should react and etc. At first I acted on my own accord just to make her feel what I felt. At the end of the day, I realised I want her back in my life. Thank you , Miyeko! :) You know how awesome you are. Thank you God for Miyeko. May I continue to be there when she needs me, anytime. May You used me to direct her to You. Thank you Lord! :)
She wrote, ' Think of her everytime I use the toothbrush holder!' . That's a smart move of missing you, Miyeko! HAHAHAHA
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I also received another gift from CAROL WONG!!!
She gave me M&Ms in this cute little expression.
She asked me make some noise by shaking the M&M's container if I am bored. That's so hilarious! But.....
Thank you , Carol! I am also really happy to know you even more, this semester and I believe in days to come. I also will miss you in the future. AND we are definitely spending time together. I love the burger + berak + ride motor time! I sayang you too! HEHEHEHEHE
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The next day, I had my awesome breakfast at MCD with the constant. Who are the constant? It's AUDREY and STEPHANIE! I was so happy that I can spend time with them! It was so awesome. :)
I love this picture! :)
They are the among the first people I've met And they are the constant. Truly, there are struggles we faced but I was glad it happened. Because it strengthen us. :) Thank you God for Audrey and Steph for they have taught me the lessons of friendships even more. Just like David and Jonathan, enable me to love just like how Jonathan did. :) Even, if we have grey hairs, we are still going to be the constant just like in uni's years. :)
This card above was from Audrey. She is awesome, you know. Just awesome. I really appreciate her presence in my life. And I know she knows it. :) Thank u, bawang!!!! :')
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I spent my afternoon with two juniors!!! DEBRA and GRACE!! They were so sweet because they treated me to cakes. I felt so loved. HAHA. Because I am a third-year senior. I used to think that I won't have time to know juniors but things happened. These two unique juniors, I really want to see them grow towards God throughout their years in university. I am glad they are in PKA , because it is a platform I've learnt most and I really want them to learn as well.
Thank you so much Grace for telling me you love me. :) You are a kind soul. Use it for God. I pray that in your third year, You will shine so much that 1st-junior will tell u what you told me. Upon that very day, remember me!
Debra, you are one unique child of God , that have so much potential to grow. You are in USM because God wants you to bless you. You'll be fine. AND you are extraordinary. You'll shine too for HIM, not for other people to see. But for HIM. :) God is with you, no matter what.
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At night, we had our MILO CG WRAP UP and they celebrated my birthday! *Yays*. Thank you so much, my children. :) I am really blessed by God to be a Cell Group Leader and I really pray that I will have more time to know each one of you next sem! :) Thank you, Yi Hong, Elyssa, Stephanie, Lucia, Michelle, Mark, Nicolas , Grace, Sarah , James and Carmen!
Next year, it will be more awesome coz we are so gonna grow towards Him at another level and with each other. HEHE!:)
And Nicolas gave me the 'Yogi' and 'Kinder Bueno' below. (I have been receiving lots of chocs , actually). In reply of your little note,
"Thank you for your encouragement. You had been an awesome leader too. I love the way you think differently. It provokes thoughts. You had been a great joy in CG!! :) I am glad you are in mine for three semesters, to date. You've brought me LAUGHTER too. May the Lord Jesus always be the centre of your life too. :))))))
This is NIC!!!:)
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LILY Yeang gave me a card! Awwwww. My partner for CG!! :) She is shoo nice, you know. I am so glad I worked and shooo sad that she is leaving for internship. I was like 'NOoooo way' but I know God had even greater and wonderful plan for her. She is just awesome. ALWAYS ALWAYS thinking of others! I learnt so much for her. Her sacrificial-self. I am glad to know her even in this short time. You see, God is just wonderful like that. If she is not my partner for CG, I will never able to know a wonderful person like her. Thank you for a good partner like LILY. I pray that what You've equipped her in this semester will be of used in times to come!:) Bless her even more, Lord!:)
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I also received an anonymous card. I am pretty much still wondering who was it from. :) But thank you so much!!!! May I continue to in your life , being His vessel in your life. :))))))
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Roomie, Catherine Mau gave me a cupcake! :) I know it is just a cupcake and why would I even write about her , right? But she is more than that. She is a blessing to me! I prayed for her existence . I used to have a 'not-really-nice' roomie (I had three different roommates for three semesters ; she is the fourth) and I prayed to God that I need a new one and I got her. She is always so nice, so funny,crazy., understanding and deep. I love the fact, I can crap with her every night. I will definitely miss her when I leave. :) Thank you , roomie!
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That was from Jonathan. :) One of the 'bros' in university. Knew him since first year, through Jazz Band. We had dinner together before he passed me this. It was the FIRST meal we were having in three years in university. Funny though. I used to think, 'Will he ever know that I was concern about him?'. Now I know that he knew it all along. And I am glad. It's not that I want it to be known. It just that I want him to know it was God that always
stirred my heart to care about him. He is a loyal friend. Someone who I , enjoyed his 'once-in-a-blue-moon' craziness. You are awesome, biawak! I pray that you will grow to RELY on God more and not yourself. Learn to PUT him first and everything will be alright! :)
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I just received this, from a man who just came back from India! He was my Cell Group Leader for two years. And I had the privilege to work with him for a year and yet, he had taught me so much. Even though he went away for internship , he was there to guide and just BE THERE when I need him to. And those times, I grew closer to him. He taught me how to be a better and spiritual leader. And now I am leading one, with what he taught. :)
Thank you , DEREK! It really mean a lot to me when you gave your wishes all the way from India. :) HAHAHA. And you said you 'sayang' me! HAHAHAHA. Thank you, brother!
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And I received this video from PATRICK Tien Hui, all the way from Australia! *so touched* . I was laughing at it when I was watching it. She said it was dark and I cannot 'tahan' . It was too hilarious. BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH TIEN!! :) You are back in Malaysia !! I am so happy! Because we can go crazy together and grow towards God together in a semester! :) *Since Carmen is doing victory dance, I do 'WELCOME BACK dance' by moon-walking!'. HAHAHAHAHAA.. See you, PATRICK!!
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I thank you, Lord, with all my heart; I sing praise to you before the gods.
I face your holy Temple, bow down, and praise your name because of your constant love and faithfulness, because you have shown that your name and your commands are supreme.
You answered me when I called to you; with your strength you strengthened me.
All the kings in the world will praise you, Lord, because they have heard your promises.
They will sing about what you have done and about your great glory.
Even though you are so high above, you care for the lowly, and the proud cannot hide from you.
When I am surrounded by troubles, you keep me safe. You oppose my angry enemies and save me by your power.
8You will do everything you have promised; Lord, your love is eternal. Complete the work that you have begun.
Psalm 138
Dear ; Heavenly Father,
This could be the season of my birthday and receiving love from people. But You are the one that gave me perfect love and died for me on the cross. You demonstrated Your loves through this amazing people in my life. Bless them , Lord abundantly. And You gave so many blessings, one upon another. In trials, You had blessed me too. I know that I could run away from you sometimes, Lord. Doing thing that I want and not what You asked me to. But You stood there, faithfully waiting for me . Thank you for these amazing people You have blessed in my life. May I be the vessel and the boat that goes whenever You want me to. You shall be the navigator of me that take charge of me. Teach me, mold me, use me Lord. Thank you SO SO SO MUCH Lord. Thank you for USM, thank you for PKA, thank you for PKA. Thank YOU , God! :)
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