In USM,I have many friends but how many close friends I have?I do not know about this.I used to have Audrey and Stephanie that I considered to be my close friends,sort of best friends-kinda-friendship.But this semester it changed.The relationship changed.Our relationship changed.*It is the fact*.

I never have problem blending with people and I can get to people easily.I was in a clique of friends for many years.Well,since I was standard five.In form 6,I formed unbreakable good friendship mainly CuiYing,Swee Eng and Jessica Heng.Things were easy then.It was always Us,Us and Us.We would studied and had some crazy activities together.Awwww*.Besides having another really good relationship with Ah Soh(he is in UMS) till now,I don't think I am actually in contact with anyone back in form 6.

I have this childhood best-friend,Su Chen.She is my bestie and my family knows she is my best friend.She is the only in the world that know everything about me.She was the one that witnessed the change in me from being a Buddhist to a Christian.We became best friend after Form 5.Su Chen had been a great friend in my life.No one could understand me like her.It is not easy to understand me for people out there because I am really good at hiding my feelings.I will never let go of her for she have been really great for me.

Those friends were the friends that really dear to me before I came into USM.

I changed.

I wasn't the person who is in a clique anymore.I go around and have meals with different people everyday.Everyone is my friend.I have close friends in certain group.I still have Audrey spending a lot of time with me-church,course and PKA.But I am really wondering today,'Who would be there for me?Like who is my close friend?'.It seriously made me think a lot.Well,I can talk to so many people but do they care for me as I care for them?Do they even realise?

But seriously,should I doubt the closeness we are in?Am I demanding?

Dear:Heavenly Father,

I am sorry,Lord for having those thoughts in me.It is just me being human and wanted to be assure in everything I do.I am really weak but I will be strong,I know.Lord,please help me to understand everything that I am enduring even though if I don't feel that I am actually treated the way I want to.Sometimes,I think I care too much.Sometimes,I dont feel it was worth it to put my time and thoughts to bond with people around me.But God,you love me and still loving,Lord even though I don't treat you the way you treated me.I just want to love like you even though I fail sometimes because it was conditionally.Yes,Lord,I am being selfish and demanding.You love me.I have you.And I am crying to you Lord for letting me to have the heart like YOURS,to love people the way you love.Thank you,Lord for listening and loving me.=)))..In Jesus Name,Amen.

In USM,I have many friends but how many close friends I have?I do not know about this.I used to have Audrey and Stephanie that I considered to be my close friends,sort of best friends-kinda-friendship.But this semester it changed.The relationship changed.Our relationship changed.*It is the fact*.

I never have problem blending with people and I can get to people easily.I was in a clique of friends for many years.Well,since I was standard five.In form 6,I formed unbreakable good friendship mainly CuiYing,Swee Eng and Jessica Heng.Things were easy then.It was always Us,Us and Us.We would studied and had some crazy activities together.Awwww*.Besides having another really good relationship with Ah Soh(he is in UMS) till now,I don't think I am actually in contact with anyone back in form 6.

I have this childhood best-friend,Su Chen.She is my bestie and my family knows she is my best friend.She is the only in the world that know everything about me.She was the one that witnessed the change in me from being a Buddhist to a Christian.We became best friend after Form 5.Su Chen had been a great friend in my life.No one could understand me like her.It is not easy to understand me for people out there because I am really good at hiding my feelings.I will never let go of her for she have been really great for me.

Those friends were the friends that really dear to me before I came into USM.

I changed.

I wasn't the person who is in a clique anymore.I go around and have meals with different people everyday.Everyone is my friend.I have close friends in certain group.I still have Audrey spending a lot of time with me-church,course and PKA.But I am really wondering today,'Who would be there for me?Like who is my close friend?'.It seriously made me think a lot.Well,I can talk to so many people but do they care for me as I care for them?Do they even realise?

But seriously,should I doubt the closeness we are in?Am I demanding?

Dear:Heavenly Father,

I am sorry,Lord for having those thoughts in me.It is just me being human and wanted to be assure in everything I do.I am really weak but I will be strong,I know.Lord,please help me to understand everything that I am enduring even though if I don't feel that I am actually treated the way I want to.Sometimes,I think I care too much.Sometimes,I dont feel it was worth it to put my time and thoughts to bond with people around me.But God,you love me and still loving,Lord even though I don't treat you the way you treated me.I just want to love like you even though I fail sometimes because it was conditionally.Yes,Lord,I am being selfish and demanding.You love me.I have you.And I am crying to you Lord for letting me to have the heart like YOURS,to love people the way you love.Thank you,Lord for listening and loving me.=)))..In Jesus Name,Amen.