A question.
POSTED ON: 23 October 2011 @ 1:19 AM | 4 comments
Today someone asked me, "Do u ever wish that you could see your dad?".I told him, "It's not possible.".He replied "It's not about you could see or not,but would you want to see if you have a chance?".
It have been a long time.
Since one asked details about him.Sometimes,I think I forgot him on a purpose because I don't want to feel sad over him.Sometimes,I think I shunned it away by laughing.I am kinda good at it after 8years.It's just I am not used being weak and emotional over something.
It have been a long time.
I was young to know everything but old enough to know the feeling of someone close to you died.I remembered writing under my study table, ''Why did you go away without a proper goodbye?Why would you just leave just like that?Can you appear in front of me one more time at least,I beg you?''.I remembered I pretended to be strong during the funeral procession.After seeing his body being cremated,I went back home holding his picture and cried my heart out.
It have been a long time.
Losing someone non-expectantly was not easy.I bought a cake for him with all my savings after a month he died to celebrate his 40th birthday.The answer to that question was partially 'Yes' and 'No'.'Yes' because it had been a long time since I saw him.'No' because it is better that way.
It have been a long time.
He taught me English.He asked me to accompany him to watch football when I was 12.He jogged with us.We danced in the living room.He lied to me telling me that he would buy for me the toys I wanted.He cooked for us.He hid at the dark corner just to terrify us when we watched X-file.He took care when I was sick.He told me to study hard.His final words were, ''Take care of this family.''(But I couldn't understand that at that point of time.)
It have been a long time.
But I had a dad.I am grateful God put a dad in my life.Because I know I had a wonderful loving dad who loves his family.Till the day he died,he never fail to fulfill his responsibilities.Appreciate the one who is alive now.
It have been a long time.
Dear Lord,
Thank you for putting a loving and marvellous dad in my life.Though he is gone and I don't know where is he.But I know you are watching out for me.You are going to be here for me thru the ups and downs.Thank you,Lord.For watching out my family too.I love you,Lord.Your love for me is deeper than ocean and yet indescribable.In Jesus Name,Amen.
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A question.
POSTED ON: 23 October 2011 @ 1:19 AM | 4 comments
Today someone asked me, "Do u ever wish that you could see your dad?".I told him, "It's not possible.".He replied "It's not about you could see or not,but would you want to see if you have a chance?".
It have been a long time.
Since one asked details about him.Sometimes,I think I forgot him on a purpose because I don't want to feel sad over him.Sometimes,I think I shunned it away by laughing.I am kinda good at it after 8years.It's just I am not used being weak and emotional over something.
It have been a long time.
I was young to know everything but old enough to know the feeling of someone close to you died.I remembered writing under my study table, ''Why did you go away without a proper goodbye?Why would you just leave just like that?Can you appear in front of me one more time at least,I beg you?''.I remembered I pretended to be strong during the funeral procession.After seeing his body being cremated,I went back home holding his picture and cried my heart out.
It have been a long time.
Losing someone non-expectantly was not easy.I bought a cake for him with all my savings after a month he died to celebrate his 40th birthday.The answer to that question was partially 'Yes' and 'No'.'Yes' because it had been a long time since I saw him.'No' because it is better that way.
It have been a long time.
He taught me English.He asked me to accompany him to watch football when I was 12.He jogged with us.We danced in the living room.He lied to me telling me that he would buy for me the toys I wanted.He cooked for us.He hid at the dark corner just to terrify us when we watched X-file.He took care when I was sick.He told me to study hard.His final words were, ''Take care of this family.''(But I couldn't understand that at that point of time.)
It have been a long time.
But I had a dad.I am grateful God put a dad in my life.Because I know I had a wonderful loving dad who loves his family.Till the day he died,he never fail to fulfill his responsibilities.Appreciate the one who is alive now.
It have been a long time.
Dear Lord,
Thank you for putting a loving and marvellous dad in my life.Though he is gone and I don't know where is he.But I know you are watching out for me.You are going to be here for me thru the ups and downs.Thank you,Lord.For watching out my family too.I love you,Lord.Your love for me is deeper than ocean and yet indescribable.In Jesus Name,Amen.
Labels: father, love
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Since one asked details about him.Sometimes,I think I forgot him on a purpose because I don't want to feel sad over him.Sometimes,I think I shunned it away by laughing.I am kinda good at it after 8years.It's just I am not used being weak and emotional over something.
