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Because of Ah Phang!

POSTED ON: 04 August 2013 @ 5:36 PM | 0 comments

It is Sunday again. But today, PKA's new batch Excos are here to do Committee Retreat Planning (CPR). It always really really nice to see these faces of darlings in the church. But even with that short meet-up, I am already so delighted but also with a little bit swollen heart inside of me.

Then, I also received this gift from a friend of mine in Penang. I cried. Why? Because when I read the card, I am feeling exactly what she is feeling. I miss her . I miss people whom I 'sayang' in USM. I think when I came back to this home of mine, I came back with 'compare mindset' Even with family, I was thinking, 'My friends in Penang would do this, why can't them?'

I cannot deny it will take a little bit more time to let go of the previous chapter that God had blessed me with. I am gonna miss the people that I used to be with so much.So so much. Sometimes my tears fell itself when I thought of it, without realising. But I am not going to allow all of these to hinder His works in my life in Melaka. I am gonna embrace these emotions but will work together hand-in-hand with grace with my Father.

It will take time but My Father is here with me. :') 

Dear Ah Phang, I miss you. :') You know I actually cried when I read that. Thank you for your continuous encouragement and love even though we are far apart. Never knew why I deserve a friend like you till now. I will always bring Donkey wherever I go to remember God's goodness in my life because He gave me friend like you. I may not see you that often anymore which actually secretly sadden me, but I will try my best okay? I really cant wait to see you again in September. Arr, I am tearing again. But you know how much you meant to me. Even though we are far apart , but you are always CLOSE to my heart. Distance is not a problem when we have the heart , love and effort. :) Me sayang YOU a lot. :')

Helllow Donkey P!!


Thank you Ah Phang!







These are my reactions when I got the Donkey!

This is for YOU, AH PHANG!
Spongebob Drawing FOR YOU!

And once again, I am thankful for all the things You have done, my Lord.


Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

I will never understand how wide, deep and great is Your love for me. But I am thankful for everything EVERYTHING You have done for me in the past, the blessings You poured unto me, My Lord.. Because of what You did, I am able to stand before you and have a personal relationship with you. Thank you for taking in all unpleasing character of mine and wanting to mold me even though I am unworthy. Thank you for loving me, for a wretch like me. Thank you for dying for me. :')






Labels: bestfriend, blessed, friendship, God, journey, love, personal, sister


A reason.

POSTED ON: 16 June 2013 @ 5:53 PM | 1 comments

I think in life, when we cannot stand someone or we were irritated by someone...naturally our human mind will lashes out all the negative thoughts about the person. For example, 'Why couldn't he/she be more mature? Things are simple isn't it? ; 'Why does he/she has to be so mean to me?' ; 'What makes he/her hates me or treat me like this?' ; ' Why did I do to deserve such a treatment?'; 'Why he/she has to act out like that?' ...and the list goes on and on. 

It is true that it is harder to be a bigger person in this situation and it is easier to respond and lashes out anger to these people who really needs a spank on their face. But for there are so many reasons to not love/dislike/hate them, can we find at least a reason to LOVE them unconditionally? Just a reason will do...

'Just find a reason to love despite many reasons to not.'

I know it is really really really difficult to choose to see things from the other side but just because someone do not deserve to be loved but that doesn't mean they shouldn't be loved. Come to think of it, all of us do not deserve His Love. But that doesn't mean God don't want to love us. 

In this world of chaos, in the world of cold-hearted people, in this world where true love seem impossible to exist ; Hold on to the reason why you love which is because..... God loves everyone. Shift your perspective to another side where understanding and actions are needed to melt the heart of the people and point them to who and where True Love is . Might be hard along the way, but as long as God is smiling and delighted because you are loving His people..it is worth it. Well, at least you are sowing to please the Spirit and from the Spirit will reap eternal life. (in ref Gal 6:8)

God is love. Therefore love. Without distinction, without calculation, without procrastination, love.  (Henry Drummond)
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret--it leads only to evil.  For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land. (Psalm 37:8-9)

In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. (1 John 4:9-11)


Labels: friendship, God, journey, life, love, thought, Word of God


Hands.

POSTED ON: 02 June 2013 @ 10:10 PM | 0 comments

I went to Prayer at P.E.N.H.O.P (Penang House of Prayer) last Friday. It had been one year since I went there. The last time I went was during my first year? Haha. I couldn't really remember.

We were worshiping God and was singing . Then I was looking at the palm of my hands. And maybe because of the light, my hands were clear and smooth. I am not saying that my hands are beautiful. It just that, that very pair hands are not that beautiful. It was dirty. It stole, touched, slapped , punch and it sinned. It went on to do the things I hated most about myself. 

But at the same time, I was just amazed that the very same hands, God wants to hold it. He wants to hold it and bring the person with that hands to greater height. At that time, I was thinking, 'God must have loved so much that He wants to hold these dirty hands. And perhaps when He was looking at it , He saw how dirty were those hands but willing to wipe the dirt away. He didn't cut the hands away but He wanted to clean it.' I am still imperfect to this days and I will continue to do things that maybe unpleasant to Him but I know my Father will not stop loving me because of these imperfections. And because of this Love, I will choose to do what is pleasing to Him, to do what is right for Him, to love who He loves and to forgive because He forgives. 

God cares about you and choose not to care how dirty your hands are because He loves you instead. His love and grace is so perfect that it overcome your imperfections.The question is, 'Are you willing to let the dirt on your palm of your hands to be cleaned by Him?'



Titus 3:3-7: For we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating one another. But when the kindness and the love of God our Savior toward man appeared, not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Savior, that having been justified by His grace we should become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.

Labels: beautiful, faithfulness, God, hope, life, love, prayer


University.

POSTED ON: @ 9:31 PM | 0 comments

One more month left before the closing for this very chapter that I would remembered for the rest of my life. In this chapter, I realised and know God more personal than ever and being equipped so many lessons and values that I couldn't even expressed. For His unfailing love, that enabled me to be changed and transformed. Looking back, I was this girl who need to be taken out from her broken place, to be healed and to be drawn closer to Him. Looking at it now, I am really delighted that I decided to follow Him. I am on the way to be the person He wants to be. To be mold and shaped. :)

 In this chapter itself, I met beautiful people who loves me despite anything , who wants to carry me forward in their life. So much for this three years. I could't even imagine my life without this people that coloured my life. I am really thankful for you, yes you  ( I know who reads my blog) who are reading this for you have been in my life, to even show me loves and advice through your actions and words. 

 Brothers and sisters, though our path crossed may stopped here but I will earnestly look forward for the day we will be celebrating in heaven. But at the mean time, live your life for Him. :)

Labels: beautiful, blessed. graduation, faith, faithfulness, God, love, university


Cheerios.

POSTED ON: 17 May 2013 @ 3:45 AM | 0 comments

This post is for this girl, PHANG CARMEN. Why? Because I always wanted to write about her. Yeah, and because today I was reflective about my university journey and this girl is a must-for-me to write because I really sayang her.

I remembered seeing her in NC. That time everyone said to me ,' You should know Carmen lah'. I am like ,' Who is this girl?. Last week as I was talking to her , she said that I am her one of good friends. I am like so honoured. This girl is President for our university CF. Why would she consider me as her good friend? HAHA.


Turned out, the feeling is mutual. Turned out, she is one of the best things that happened to me in university. I always that God placed her in my life to equip me with His love and His wisdom. This girl always look at things so differently that I can learn from her. This girl always so fired up for God. This girl always always lend her helping hands when I have no one to turn to. She always says to me , 'Fong Wan, you know you always come to me when you don't have enough money.' :') God knows what I need in life, it is not about money. It is about reassurance He will provide.

 Today I just want to tell her this:

 Dear Phang Carmen,

 I am really thankful for you. Yes, you! I know you might hear this many times, but I really think I sayang you. Thank you for everything you have done. Always so welcoming. Always so accepting. Like a family , I can rely when I have no one to turn to. I am really grateful for your presence in my life. Thank you for showing me Christ's love towards people. Thank you for living God's way. Thank you for just being there for me caring for me as I go somewhere. Thank you for teaching me lessons . Thank you for regarding me as your good friends. I may not be that good but in your eyes, you always see the best in me. So many things great things about you, but thank you so so much for choosing to LOVE me despite everything. :') WE will definitely cheer one another up to keep our eyes on Him and run the race with endurance, okay? Let finish the race and demonstrate of His love to family and the ones we care okay? Let's be friend forever until we go heaven okay? And we shall dance with joy with Him in His kingdom. :')
1st Year
First meet in National Conference (N.C)




2nd Year



3rd Year 







MUAHHHHHHHH!!!! *Love love love*

Labels: adventure, beautiful, blessed. graduation, faithfulness, friendship, God, journey, kawan sejati, life, love, person, university


Truly, Malaysian.

POSTED ON: 09 May 2013 @ 12:23 AM | 0 comments

Someone posted about being Malaysian. 
My friend: She is not Malaysian meh?
Me : You can be a Malaysian without truly knowing the real meaning of being a Malaysian. 

 Being a Malaysian takes so much more than what you think it is. It is about loving one another regardless religion, culture, financial level, ethnicity and status . It is about taking off whatever you are and going extra miles for one another. It is about compromising and the willingness to understand the beautiful differences we have that make each of us unique. It is about doing what best for our Malaysia. It's the heart of acceptance despite the differences knowing that we have one thing in common : 
THE LOVE for MALAYSIANS and MALAYSIA.





Labels: blessed, God, heartforpeople, hope, justice, love, Malaysia, thought, unity


GREATER things have yet to come.

POSTED ON: 08 May 2013 @ 1:03 AM | 0 comments

You’re the God of this cityYou’re the King of these peopleYou’re the Lord of this nationYou are
You’re the light in this darknessYou’re the hope to the hopelessYou’re the peace to the restlessYou are
There is no one like our GodThere is no one like our God
Greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this cityGreater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this city
You’re the God of this cityYou’re the King of these peopleYou’re the Lord of this nationYou are
You’re the light in this darknessYou’re the hope to the hopelessYou’re the peace to the restlessYou are
There is no one like our GodThere is no one like our God
Greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this cityGreater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this city

With the placement of my Hope on my God, I trust with all my heart that great things are yet to come for this nation. I shall not give up and continue to be vessel and agent of change for Him. Let's not lose our sight on Him but keep our eyes on Him. For He is indeed the God, King and Lord of Malaysia. Thank you, Lord for your assurance and comfort that You are preparing us for great things. 


Isaiah 40:29-31
He gives power to the weakand strength to the powerless.Even youths will become weak and tired,and young men will fall in exhaustion.But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.








Labels: blessed, faithfulness, God, love, Malaysia


What touches me the most.

POSTED ON: 30 April 2013 @ 2:37 PM | 1 comments

What touches me the most is not the promises the opposition had made, 
Neither the determination of bringing down another party.

But what touches me the most is how determine WE are ; young and old, 
To strive,
To go all out, 
Even under the pouring rain.

What touches me, 
is the realisation that we can stand strong and united,
to stand for what is true and right,
to cry out for justice that was not served,
for the dead that cannot speak,
for the weak that being trampled on,
for the poor that deserve sympathy, 
for the voice that cannot be heard.

What touches me,
Is the spirit to march on,
With all that we have,
Even with the fear , the worries and the uncertainties,
Knowing that we are the agent of change,
for this beloved country.

What touches me,
Is that we are marching on,
Step by step
Toward transformation and betterment,
because of the love WE have for this country, MALAYSIA.

and THAT...touches me the most.

 :')



Labels: bless, justice. election, love, Malaysia, nation, poem, pray


My country, Malaysia.

POSTED ON: 22 April 2013 @ 8:42 PM | 0 comments


 Remembered it was in the PLAN 11 back in 2011 that I sang Malaysia anthem, Negaraku with full of love and dedication that declares Malaysia is my country and I love Malaysia for the first time.
Jesus loves Malaysia. My God loves Malaysia and its people. 

 And because of that, I will not sit still , being feared and not do anything. I will continue to march on with all I have to stand strong in Him and with Him for this upcoming election. If you ask me honestly 'Why change the government?'. It is not because they ruled too long but because I want OUR voices to be heard. It doesn't matter who rules the country but I want a government that listen to the cries of his people and to sit down with his people and take time to do what is BEST for his people. 

 It is not because of the race differences, not because of the religion differences, not because the historical background differences..it is because it falls to only one thing , we are all HUMAN and we deserve all the equal rights and privilege as human. 

The leaders that I hope and pray for is the leader that will think of his people, love his people and  would even sacrifice himself for his people despite whoever and which race because that is the leaders that will put his people first. 

 I remembered watching Lincoln (Abraham Lincoln biography movie), with his famous quote 'Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth.'. He managed to lived this quote by breaking the chain of American African being the slaves. He even sacrifice his sleep to think of the way to use all he can to stop the Whites from using the Blacks as slaves. He stood for equal right even though he , himself is a white. Today, Barack Obama is the first American African President and yes , it came from a long way since 1861. But it is all worth it, isn't it? Because everyone deserve to be treated Human with the same rights, truth, love and attention and care.

 In this crucial time, let's us not sit at our comfort seat and watch these things that happens around and do nothing about it. Simple things such as pray unceasingly for our beloved nation, share the information that it is important is more than enough. Walk the talk! 

 Greater things are yet to come if all of us do our part as Malaysians. Don't look away. Change yourself too if you want the change in Malaysia. The future generation depends on you too. You too , can make a difference in this country starting today. 



' I don't stand at white's side. I don't stand at black's side. I stand at God's side.'  (Bob Marley)


'I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live by the light that I have. I must stand with anybody that stands right, and stand with him while he is right, and part with him when he goes wrong.'  (Abraham Lincoln)

'Be a good citizen. All governments are under God. Insofar as there is peace and order, it’s God’s order. So live responsibly as a citizen.' (Roman 13:1; Message Translation)



Labels: God, justice. election, life, love, Malaysia, nation, pray


Jesus Loves My Family Too! :)

POSTED ON: 13 April 2013 @ 11:57 PM | 0 comments

I love USM. In fact, this lovely place had become my comfort zone. But when it's time to leave, I pray that I will not let God down with everything He had taught me. When it's time to go back the home that I left for three years, I pray that I will manifest Him and His love to my beloved family, to declare to them through actions that it is God that had changed me. Hopefully, they will see Him in me. I will do anything for my family to know He is my Lord, my Saviour and He loves them too. :)
Micah 6:8 : He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God? 

Labels: faith, family, God, happy, life, love, person


King of Love.

POSTED ON: 31 March 2013 @ 4:34 PM | 0 comments

Received salvation the day after Blessed Easter 8 years. Reason? Because at that time, I have no hope, nothing to hold on, no one to turn to. And then I went to this play on Easter Day and I saw this man who was beaten, bleed and risen from grave. I am like , ' Who is this man? He is blameless and why He did this?'

This is the Jesus Christ, the God of the religion that my family asked me not to convert myself. In my thought, I was thinking, 'Isn't this man good. Why mommy and daddy asked me not to believe in Him?'. I did not ask much on why, what, should I this or that ... I know the next day after the play, I prayed a simple prayer. I said to Him, ' You have given me hope that I've been hoping for. You took away things I've been struggling.I don't know what I should do but I know that You are real like I can sense you and I want to know you.'

In a blink of an eye, it's EIGHT years now and I must say, this God of mine.. He is so faithful to me that sometimes I cannot take it. I meant, if I have to face with me.. I would just give up on me. But He did not give up.

That's the truth of Christianity, that Jesus Christ was resurrected on the cross because God never gave up on us. He sent His son to redeem us from sin, to give us the gift of Grace, to conquer wages of sin which is Death and give us everlasting Life that was already paid on the cross.

Today, I stand before the Worship in church.. singing 'Hallelujah, My God is a RISEN King.' . In my heart, I am really joyful that IT IS FINISHED. He is RISEN! It is done , my dear friend. No more. No more this and that. DONE!
Because Jesus DIED and He ROSE again!

The ultimate truth is that , It is all about Jesus Christ's resurrection. It is the part that gives you hope and reason to live.

Let me tell u a secret ..

If Jesus can die for you, what makes you think that He will give up on you? Why He came down to Earth and give up His life for you..shed His blood for you..? For what? 

Because.. He loves you . He never want to give up on You. He LOVES YOU, my dear friend. 

'At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was she'd for me
There's no greater love than this 
You have overcome the grave 
Your glory fills the highest place 
What can separate me now '

 Roman 5:9-11

 9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through Him! 10 For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to Him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! 11 Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.




Labels: beautiful, faith, faithfulness, God, love, personal


Happy Birthday , Ah Kuan!!

POSTED ON: 27 March 2013 @ 1:38 AM | 0 comments

I have a lot of brothers ( close guy friends ) throughout Form 6 till today, in university. But I have only ONE blood-tied brother . 

His name is Daryl Tham King Kuan!! 



And HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AH KUAN!!


As cute as me , you see! HAHAHA

This brother of mine is younger than me two years old. But whenever he goes out with me, people will assumed that he is three years older than me due to his size and height. HAHAHA.

My brother cooks better that I do. And he loves to ask my sister and I to try on the food that he cooked. My brother is such a funny person that I cannot resist laughing at his weird lame jokes. (I think my whole family jokes) .

When we were young, we slapped one another's faces because our dad asked us as a form of punishment. And it was so funny that we ended up crying because we slapped each other too hard.

He is currently working in Brunei. He is kinda like the breadwinner of the family. It is because I am still pursuing my studies, my brother is working now. Sometimes , I felt like I owe him an apology for being the one that provides for my mom and family.


I was 19, and he was 17.


We were eating in Papa Pizza in 2010.


Sis, bro and I.  One year ago.



Chinese New Year 2013. This year!:)


Dear Ah Kuan,

This is for you to tell you how much I appreciate your presence in my life. A part of me is very very very thankful that you are my brother , that you are out there  working to support the family. I am also thankful that you had been so strong emotionally and always so thoughtful for you always think for family. You are more than what you think you are . I really hope that I can share your burdens soon . I also begin to appreciate you more now. I thank God for you in my life, that I may continue studying without any major struggles because you were there to solve the problems that I couldn't. Thank you, Ah Kuan. You maybe strong and big outside but I know you are a gentle soul inside. So whoever who bully you, please tell me! I wallop him/ her! HAHAHA. I just wanna tell you it's your birthday. Happy 21st birthday. Thank you for your presence this 21 years and I give u the things you want when I have my first salary okay? :) Take care brother! I miss you!!! And I will always always always there for you in the future. Like what mom used to teach us, ' Even if the whole world turn against your brother, you should not. You should love your brother instead.' 

Labels: beautiful, birthday, bless, brother, family, God, journey, life, love


Dance and sing around me.

POSTED ON: 17 March 2013 @ 1:59 AM | 0 comments

''You dance over me,
While I am unaware. 
You sing all around,
But I've never hear a sound.''

This song always always always remind me how FAITHFUL is my God. He is so mighty and so great but He dance and sing around me. Who am I that He choose to dance and sing around me? But ... He just does.

This song reminds me, how I can be so focus with my problems without realising that He is always around me , always so inviting, always so accepting, always so loving...

This song reminds me that God will never stop loving me even with the flaws and weaknesses that I have. That He is willing to just accept it the way it is, and love me the way I am. From there, He is willing to hold my hand and correct me, taking the flaws one by one and journey with me with who I really am. 

''What you think you are doesn't stop God from loving you.'

''How wide,
How deep,
How great,
is Your Love for me...''

And yes, Lord...

I am amazed by...how You love me. 

Roman 5: 7-8 ;  Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this : While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.


Labels: beautiful, faithfulness, God, love, personal, random, thought


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Because of Ah Phang!

POSTED ON: 04 August 2013 @ 5:36 PM | 0 comments

It is Sunday again. But today, PKA's new batch Excos are here to do Committee Retreat Planning (CPR). It always really really nice to see these faces of darlings in the church. But even with that short meet-up, I am already so delighted but also with a little bit swollen heart inside of me.

Then, I also received this gift from a friend of mine in Penang. I cried. Why? Because when I read the card, I am feeling exactly what she is feeling. I miss her . I miss people whom I 'sayang' in USM. I think when I came back to this home of mine, I came back with 'compare mindset' Even with family, I was thinking, 'My friends in Penang would do this, why can't them?'

I cannot deny it will take a little bit more time to let go of the previous chapter that God had blessed me with. I am gonna miss the people that I used to be with so much.So so much. Sometimes my tears fell itself when I thought of it, without realising. But I am not going to allow all of these to hinder His works in my life in Melaka. I am gonna embrace these emotions but will work together hand-in-hand with grace with my Father.

It will take time but My Father is here with me. :') 

Dear Ah Phang, I miss you. :') You know I actually cried when I read that. Thank you for your continuous encouragement and love even though we are far apart. Never knew why I deserve a friend like you till now. I will always bring Donkey wherever I go to remember God's goodness in my life because He gave me friend like you. I may not see you that often anymore which actually secretly sadden me, but I will try my best okay? I really cant wait to see you again in September. Arr, I am tearing again. But you know how much you meant to me. Even though we are far apart , but you are always CLOSE to my heart. Distance is not a problem when we have the heart , love and effort. :) Me sayang YOU a lot. :')

Helllow Donkey P!!


Thank you Ah Phang!







These are my reactions when I got the Donkey!

This is for YOU, AH PHANG!
Spongebob Drawing FOR YOU!

And once again, I am thankful for all the things You have done, my Lord.


Before the world began
You were on His mind
And every tear you cry
Is precious in His eyes
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Nothing you can do
Could make Him love you more
And nothing that you've done
Could make Him close the door
Because of His great love
He gave His only Son
Everything was done
So you would come

Come to the Father
Though your gift is small
Broken hearts, broken lives
He will take them all
The power of the Word
The power of His blood
Everything was done
So you would come

I will never understand how wide, deep and great is Your love for me. But I am thankful for everything EVERYTHING You have done for me in the past, the blessings You poured unto me, My Lord.. Because of what You did, I am able to stand before you and have a personal relationship with you. Thank you for taking in all unpleasing character of mine and wanting to mold me even though I am unworthy. Thank you for loving me, for a wretch like me. Thank you for dying for me. :')






Labels: bestfriend, blessed, friendship, God, journey, love, personal, sister


A reason.

POSTED ON: 16 June 2013 @ 5:53 PM | 1 comments

I think in life, when we cannot stand someone or we were irritated by someone...naturally our human mind will lashes out all the negative thoughts about the person. For example, 'Why couldn't he/she be more mature? Things are simple isn't it? ; 'Why does he/she has to be so mean to me?' ; 'What makes he/her hates me or treat me like this?' ; ' Why did I do to deserve such a treatment?'; 'Why he/she has to act out like that?' ...and the list goes on and on. 

It is true that it is harder to be a bigger person in this situation and it is easier to respond and lashes out anger to these people who really needs a spank on their face. But for there are so many reasons to not love/dislike/hate them, can we find at least a reason to LOVE them unconditionally? Just a reason will do...

'Just find a reason to love despite many reasons to not.'

I know it is really really really difficult to choose to see things from the other side but just because someone do not deserve to be loved but that doesn't mean they shouldn't be loved. Come to think of it, all of us do not deserve His Love. But that doesn't mean God don't want to love us. 

In this world of chaos, in the world of cold-hearted people, in this world where true love seem impossible to exist ; Hold on to the reason why you love which is because..... God loves everyone. Shift your perspective to another side where understanding and actions are needed to melt the heart of the people and point them to who and where True Love is . Might be hard along the way, but as long as God is smiling and delighted because you are loving His people..it is worth it. Well, at least you are sowing to please the Spirit and from the Spirit will reap eternal life. (in ref Gal 6:8)

God is love. Therefore love. Without distinction, without calculation, without procrastination, love.  (Henry Drummond)
Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret--it leads only to evil.  For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land. (Psalm 37:8-9)

In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. (1 John 4:9-11)


Labels: friendship, God, journey, life, love, thought, Word of God


Hands.

POSTED ON: 02 June 2013 @ 10:10 PM | 0 comments

I went to Prayer at P.E.N.H.O.P (Penang House of Prayer) last Friday. It had been one year since I went there. The last time I went was during my first year? Haha. I couldn't really remember.

We were worshiping God and was singing . Then I was looking at the palm of my hands. And maybe because of the light, my hands were clear and smooth. I am not saying that my hands are beautiful. It just that, that very pair hands are not that beautiful. It was dirty. It stole, touched, slapped , punch and it sinned. It went on to do the things I hated most about myself. 

But at the same time, I was just amazed that the very same hands, God wants to hold it. He wants to hold it and bring the person with that hands to greater height. At that time, I was thinking, 'God must have loved so much that He wants to hold these dirty hands. And perhaps when He was looking at it , He saw how dirty were those hands but willing to wipe the dirt away. He didn't cut the hands away but He wanted to clean it.' I am still imperfect to this days and I will continue to do things that maybe unpleasant to Him but I know my Father will not stop loving me because of these imperfections. And because of this Love, I will choose to do what is pleasing to Him, to do what is right for Him, to love who He loves and to forgive because He forgives. 

God cares about you and choose not to care how dirty your hands are because He loves you instead. His love and grace is so perfect that it overcome your imperfections.The question is, 'Are you willing to let the dirt on your palm of your hands to be cleaned by Him?'



Titus 3:3-7: For we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating one another. But when the kindness and the love of God our Savior toward man appeared, not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Savior, that having been justified by His grace we should become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.

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University.

POSTED ON: @ 9:31 PM | 0 comments

One more month left before the closing for this very chapter that I would remembered for the rest of my life. In this chapter, I realised and know God more personal than ever and being equipped so many lessons and values that I couldn't even expressed. For His unfailing love, that enabled me to be changed and transformed. Looking back, I was this girl who need to be taken out from her broken place, to be healed and to be drawn closer to Him. Looking at it now, I am really delighted that I decided to follow Him. I am on the way to be the person He wants to be. To be mold and shaped. :)

 In this chapter itself, I met beautiful people who loves me despite anything , who wants to carry me forward in their life. So much for this three years. I could't even imagine my life without this people that coloured my life. I am really thankful for you, yes you  ( I know who reads my blog) who are reading this for you have been in my life, to even show me loves and advice through your actions and words. 

 Brothers and sisters, though our path crossed may stopped here but I will earnestly look forward for the day we will be celebrating in heaven. But at the mean time, live your life for Him. :)

Labels: beautiful, blessed. graduation, faith, faithfulness, God, love, university


Cheerios.

POSTED ON: 17 May 2013 @ 3:45 AM | 0 comments

This post is for this girl, PHANG CARMEN. Why? Because I always wanted to write about her. Yeah, and because today I was reflective about my university journey and this girl is a must-for-me to write because I really sayang her.

I remembered seeing her in NC. That time everyone said to me ,' You should know Carmen lah'. I am like ,' Who is this girl?. Last week as I was talking to her , she said that I am her one of good friends. I am like so honoured. This girl is President for our university CF. Why would she consider me as her good friend? HAHA.


Turned out, the feeling is mutual. Turned out, she is one of the best things that happened to me in university. I always that God placed her in my life to equip me with His love and His wisdom. This girl always look at things so differently that I can learn from her. This girl always so fired up for God. This girl always always lend her helping hands when I have no one to turn to. She always says to me , 'Fong Wan, you know you always come to me when you don't have enough money.' :') God knows what I need in life, it is not about money. It is about reassurance He will provide.

 Today I just want to tell her this:

 Dear Phang Carmen,

 I am really thankful for you. Yes, you! I know you might hear this many times, but I really think I sayang you. Thank you for everything you have done. Always so welcoming. Always so accepting. Like a family , I can rely when I have no one to turn to. I am really grateful for your presence in my life. Thank you for showing me Christ's love towards people. Thank you for living God's way. Thank you for just being there for me caring for me as I go somewhere. Thank you for teaching me lessons . Thank you for regarding me as your good friends. I may not be that good but in your eyes, you always see the best in me. So many things great things about you, but thank you so so much for choosing to LOVE me despite everything. :') WE will definitely cheer one another up to keep our eyes on Him and run the race with endurance, okay? Let finish the race and demonstrate of His love to family and the ones we care okay? Let's be friend forever until we go heaven okay? And we shall dance with joy with Him in His kingdom. :')
1st Year
First meet in National Conference (N.C)




2nd Year



3rd Year 







MUAHHHHHHHH!!!! *Love love love*

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Truly, Malaysian.

POSTED ON: 09 May 2013 @ 12:23 AM | 0 comments

Someone posted about being Malaysian. 
My friend: She is not Malaysian meh?
Me : You can be a Malaysian without truly knowing the real meaning of being a Malaysian. 

 Being a Malaysian takes so much more than what you think it is. It is about loving one another regardless religion, culture, financial level, ethnicity and status . It is about taking off whatever you are and going extra miles for one another. It is about compromising and the willingness to understand the beautiful differences we have that make each of us unique. It is about doing what best for our Malaysia. It's the heart of acceptance despite the differences knowing that we have one thing in common : 
THE LOVE for MALAYSIANS and MALAYSIA.





Labels: blessed, God, heartforpeople, hope, justice, love, Malaysia, thought, unity


GREATER things have yet to come.

POSTED ON: 08 May 2013 @ 1:03 AM | 0 comments

You’re the God of this cityYou’re the King of these peopleYou’re the Lord of this nationYou are
You’re the light in this darknessYou’re the hope to the hopelessYou’re the peace to the restlessYou are
There is no one like our GodThere is no one like our God
Greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this cityGreater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this city
You’re the God of this cityYou’re the King of these peopleYou’re the Lord of this nationYou are
You’re the light in this darknessYou’re the hope to the hopelessYou’re the peace to the restlessYou are
There is no one like our GodThere is no one like our God
Greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this cityGreater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this city

With the placement of my Hope on my God, I trust with all my heart that great things are yet to come for this nation. I shall not give up and continue to be vessel and agent of change for Him. Let's not lose our sight on Him but keep our eyes on Him. For He is indeed the God, King and Lord of Malaysia. Thank you, Lord for your assurance and comfort that You are preparing us for great things. 


Isaiah 40:29-31
He gives power to the weakand strength to the powerless.Even youths will become weak and tired,and young men will fall in exhaustion.But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.They will soar high on wings like eagles.They will run and not grow weary.They will walk and not faint.








Labels: blessed, faithfulness, God, love, Malaysia


What touches me the most.

POSTED ON: 30 April 2013 @ 2:37 PM | 1 comments

What touches me the most is not the promises the opposition had made, 
Neither the determination of bringing down another party.

But what touches me the most is how determine WE are ; young and old, 
To strive,
To go all out, 
Even under the pouring rain.

What touches me, 
is the realisation that we can stand strong and united,
to stand for what is true and right,
to cry out for justice that was not served,
for the dead that cannot speak,
for the weak that being trampled on,
for the poor that deserve sympathy, 
for the voice that cannot be heard.

What touches me,
Is the spirit to march on,
With all that we have,
Even with the fear , the worries and the uncertainties,
Knowing that we are the agent of change,
for this beloved country.

What touches me,
Is that we are marching on,
Step by step
Toward transformation and betterment,
because of the love WE have for this country, MALAYSIA.

and THAT...touches me the most.

 :')



Labels: bless, justice. election, love, Malaysia, nation, poem, pray


My country, Malaysia.

POSTED ON: 22 April 2013 @ 8:42 PM | 0 comments


 Remembered it was in the PLAN 11 back in 2011 that I sang Malaysia anthem, Negaraku with full of love and dedication that declares Malaysia is my country and I love Malaysia for the first time.
Jesus loves Malaysia. My God loves Malaysia and its people. 

 And because of that, I will not sit still , being feared and not do anything. I will continue to march on with all I have to stand strong in Him and with Him for this upcoming election. If you ask me honestly 'Why change the government?'. It is not because they ruled too long but because I want OUR voices to be heard. It doesn't matter who rules the country but I want a government that listen to the cries of his people and to sit down with his people and take time to do what is BEST for his people. 

 It is not because of the race differences, not because of the religion differences, not because the historical background differences..it is because it falls to only one thing , we are all HUMAN and we deserve all the equal rights and privilege as human. 

The leaders that I hope and pray for is the leader that will think of his people, love his people and  would even sacrifice himself for his people despite whoever and which race because that is the leaders that will put his people first. 

 I remembered watching Lincoln (Abraham Lincoln biography movie), with his famous quote 'Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth.'. He managed to lived this quote by breaking the chain of American African being the slaves. He even sacrifice his sleep to think of the way to use all he can to stop the Whites from using the Blacks as slaves. He stood for equal right even though he , himself is a white. Today, Barack Obama is the first American African President and yes , it came from a long way since 1861. But it is all worth it, isn't it? Because everyone deserve to be treated Human with the same rights, truth, love and attention and care.

 In this crucial time, let's us not sit at our comfort seat and watch these things that happens around and do nothing about it. Simple things such as pray unceasingly for our beloved nation, share the information that it is important is more than enough. Walk the talk! 

 Greater things are yet to come if all of us do our part as Malaysians. Don't look away. Change yourself too if you want the change in Malaysia. The future generation depends on you too. You too , can make a difference in this country starting today. 



' I don't stand at white's side. I don't stand at black's side. I stand at God's side.'  (Bob Marley)


'I am not bound to win, but I am bound to be true. I am not bound to succeed, but I am bound to live by the light that I have. I must stand with anybody that stands right, and stand with him while he is right, and part with him when he goes wrong.'  (Abraham Lincoln)

'Be a good citizen. All governments are under God. Insofar as there is peace and order, it’s God’s order. So live responsibly as a citizen.' (Roman 13:1; Message Translation)



Labels: God, justice. election, life, love, Malaysia, nation, pray


Jesus Loves My Family Too! :)

POSTED ON: 13 April 2013 @ 11:57 PM | 0 comments

I love USM. In fact, this lovely place had become my comfort zone. But when it's time to leave, I pray that I will not let God down with everything He had taught me. When it's time to go back the home that I left for three years, I pray that I will manifest Him and His love to my beloved family, to declare to them through actions that it is God that had changed me. Hopefully, they will see Him in me. I will do anything for my family to know He is my Lord, my Saviour and He loves them too. :)
Micah 6:8 : He has shown you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God? 

Labels: faith, family, God, happy, life, love, person


King of Love.

POSTED ON: 31 March 2013 @ 4:34 PM | 0 comments

Received salvation the day after Blessed Easter 8 years. Reason? Because at that time, I have no hope, nothing to hold on, no one to turn to. And then I went to this play on Easter Day and I saw this man who was beaten, bleed and risen from grave. I am like , ' Who is this man? He is blameless and why He did this?'

This is the Jesus Christ, the God of the religion that my family asked me not to convert myself. In my thought, I was thinking, 'Isn't this man good. Why mommy and daddy asked me not to believe in Him?'. I did not ask much on why, what, should I this or that ... I know the next day after the play, I prayed a simple prayer. I said to Him, ' You have given me hope that I've been hoping for. You took away things I've been struggling.I don't know what I should do but I know that You are real like I can sense you and I want to know you.'

In a blink of an eye, it's EIGHT years now and I must say, this God of mine.. He is so faithful to me that sometimes I cannot take it. I meant, if I have to face with me.. I would just give up on me. But He did not give up.

That's the truth of Christianity, that Jesus Christ was resurrected on the cross because God never gave up on us. He sent His son to redeem us from sin, to give us the gift of Grace, to conquer wages of sin which is Death and give us everlasting Life that was already paid on the cross.

Today, I stand before the Worship in church.. singing 'Hallelujah, My God is a RISEN King.' . In my heart, I am really joyful that IT IS FINISHED. He is RISEN! It is done , my dear friend. No more. No more this and that. DONE!
Because Jesus DIED and He ROSE again!

The ultimate truth is that , It is all about Jesus Christ's resurrection. It is the part that gives you hope and reason to live.

Let me tell u a secret ..

If Jesus can die for you, what makes you think that He will give up on you? Why He came down to Earth and give up His life for you..shed His blood for you..? For what? 

Because.. He loves you . He never want to give up on You. He LOVES YOU, my dear friend. 

'At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was she'd for me
There's no greater love than this 
You have overcome the grave 
Your glory fills the highest place 
What can separate me now '

 Roman 5:9-11

 9 Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through Him! 10 For if, while we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to Him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! 11 Not only is this so, but we also boast in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.




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Happy Birthday , Ah Kuan!!

POSTED ON: 27 March 2013 @ 1:38 AM | 0 comments

I have a lot of brothers ( close guy friends ) throughout Form 6 till today, in university. But I have only ONE blood-tied brother . 

His name is Daryl Tham King Kuan!! 



And HAPPY BIRTHDAY, AH KUAN!!


As cute as me , you see! HAHAHA

This brother of mine is younger than me two years old. But whenever he goes out with me, people will assumed that he is three years older than me due to his size and height. HAHAHA.

My brother cooks better that I do. And he loves to ask my sister and I to try on the food that he cooked. My brother is such a funny person that I cannot resist laughing at his weird lame jokes. (I think my whole family jokes) .

When we were young, we slapped one another's faces because our dad asked us as a form of punishment. And it was so funny that we ended up crying because we slapped each other too hard.

He is currently working in Brunei. He is kinda like the breadwinner of the family. It is because I am still pursuing my studies, my brother is working now. Sometimes , I felt like I owe him an apology for being the one that provides for my mom and family.


I was 19, and he was 17.


We were eating in Papa Pizza in 2010.


Sis, bro and I.  One year ago.



Chinese New Year 2013. This year!:)


Dear Ah Kuan,

This is for you to tell you how much I appreciate your presence in my life. A part of me is very very very thankful that you are my brother , that you are out there  working to support the family. I am also thankful that you had been so strong emotionally and always so thoughtful for you always think for family. You are more than what you think you are . I really hope that I can share your burdens soon . I also begin to appreciate you more now. I thank God for you in my life, that I may continue studying without any major struggles because you were there to solve the problems that I couldn't. Thank you, Ah Kuan. You maybe strong and big outside but I know you are a gentle soul inside. So whoever who bully you, please tell me! I wallop him/ her! HAHAHA. I just wanna tell you it's your birthday. Happy 21st birthday. Thank you for your presence this 21 years and I give u the things you want when I have my first salary okay? :) Take care brother! I miss you!!! And I will always always always there for you in the future. Like what mom used to teach us, ' Even if the whole world turn against your brother, you should not. You should love your brother instead.' 

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Dance and sing around me.

POSTED ON: 17 March 2013 @ 1:59 AM | 0 comments

''You dance over me,
While I am unaware. 
You sing all around,
But I've never hear a sound.''

This song always always always remind me how FAITHFUL is my God. He is so mighty and so great but He dance and sing around me. Who am I that He choose to dance and sing around me? But ... He just does.

This song reminds me, how I can be so focus with my problems without realising that He is always around me , always so inviting, always so accepting, always so loving...

This song reminds me that God will never stop loving me even with the flaws and weaknesses that I have. That He is willing to just accept it the way it is, and love me the way I am. From there, He is willing to hold my hand and correct me, taking the flaws one by one and journey with me with who I really am. 

''What you think you are doesn't stop God from loving you.'

''How wide,
How deep,
How great,
is Your Love for me...''

And yes, Lord...

I am amazed by...how You love me. 

Roman 5: 7-8 ;  Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this : While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.


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