What do You wanna do?
POSTED ON: 21 July 2012 @ 5:57 PM | 3 comments
What do you wanna do with your life, Fong Wan?
These days my brain is full of this question. Maybe it's internship. To reaffirm what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I believe God gave me certain gifts that I can use to reap at certain places and certainly it is not here. Public relation. Office. Facing computer for a whole day. I don't know. Sometimes, I am in position to handle media. Events. Free admission.
I tried to look at things, positively. Tried my best. My Best. But emotions caught me sometimes. Sometimes, tears just overshadowed my vision when I was thinking about it. Franklysaying, this internship is not easy. It is not because of the work or task. But people.
I cannot help but to judge how they treat us sometimes-how they treat one another, how cliquish are they among one another.I do not know that if it that I was treated nicely by people all the time or peoples here are just like that. A friend said, ' You are not suitable for this job.' I denied but now, I think it is true. This place. This corporate-kind-of-job, really is not a place for me.
I see myself working happily, miggling with people, talking to them, comforting them. Impacting people with what I've learnt with God, people and them. Even if I was to face obstacles, I know that I am doing what I love.
Not sitting in front of computer for a day and not allowed to talk in the office. Pretending to be busy even I am not.
Seriously, I can't wait for this to be done. I am transferring to another team next month. I will be over with this team - Media. I don't know what would happened next. But I know what I wanna do for the rest of my life. Certainly, it's not this.
Yesterday, I expressed everything to God. For the first time, I was soOOO angry at God. Even though, I was so angry but my action will not change God Himself. He still continue to be loving, patient and kind towards me which amazed me.
I have learnt. Although people here are workaholic, cliquish, all-the-cooporate-kind-of-attitudes, but I cannot allow myself to be blinded by that by treating them the same. I have to be patient. Even if I cannot stand it anymore, I will run to God. He shall renew my strength to overcome all my difficulties. And I shall not become one of them. I:) I have learnt no matter what how much you dont understand why are you being put in a difficult situation that leave you suffocating, God understand. He is just there. Cry, be angry, just be unglued..coz HE IS THERE.
Galatian 6:9
Let us not be weary in doing food, for at proper time,we will REAP A HARVEST if we DO NOT GIVE UP.
Labels: faithfulness, God, thought, tough
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What do You wanna do?
POSTED ON: 21 July 2012 @ 5:57 PM | 3 comments
What do you wanna do with your life, Fong Wan?
These days my brain is full of this question. Maybe it's internship. To reaffirm what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I believe God gave me certain gifts that I can use to reap at certain places and certainly it is not here. Public relation. Office. Facing computer for a whole day. I don't know. Sometimes, I am in position to handle media. Events. Free admission.
I tried to look at things, positively. Tried my best. My Best. But emotions caught me sometimes. Sometimes, tears just overshadowed my vision when I was thinking about it. Franklysaying, this internship is not easy. It is not because of the work or task. But people.
I cannot help but to judge how they treat us sometimes-how they treat one another, how cliquish are they among one another.I do not know that if it that I was treated nicely by people all the time or peoples here are just like that. A friend said, ' You are not suitable for this job.' I denied but now, I think it is true. This place. This corporate-kind-of-job, really is not a place for me.
I see myself working happily, miggling with people, talking to them, comforting them. Impacting people with what I've learnt with God, people and them. Even if I was to face obstacles, I know that I am doing what I love.
Not sitting in front of computer for a day and not allowed to talk in the office. Pretending to be busy even I am not.
Seriously, I can't wait for this to be done. I am transferring to another team next month. I will be over with this team - Media. I don't know what would happened next. But I know what I wanna do for the rest of my life. Certainly, it's not this.
Yesterday, I expressed everything to God. For the first time, I was soOOO angry at God. Even though, I was so angry but my action will not change God Himself. He still continue to be loving, patient and kind towards me which amazed me.
I have learnt. Although people here are workaholic, cliquish, all-the-cooporate-kind-of-attitudes, but I cannot allow myself to be blinded by that by treating them the same. I have to be patient. Even if I cannot stand it anymore, I will run to God. He shall renew my strength to overcome all my difficulties. And I shall not become one of them. I:) I have learnt no matter what how much you dont understand why are you being put in a difficult situation that leave you suffocating, God understand. He is just there. Cry, be angry, just be unglued..coz HE IS THERE.
Galatian 6:9
Let us not be weary in doing food, for at proper time,we will REAP A HARVEST if we DO NOT GIVE UP.
Labels: faithfulness, God, thought, tough
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