Graduation.
POSTED ON: 22 April 2012 @ 1:35 AM | 2 comments
I was playing for the convocation as a Jazz Band member today. But the first thought that came to my mind when I was having rehearsal yesterday was 'Next year it will be your turn if you are not selected for the student exchange.' ( I am applying for student exchange and still waiting for the confirmation). My heart skipped a beat.
Because the fact that the time flew so quick that I do not even realised that it's approaching the the end of semester. I was actually worried,you see. I was having McDonald with my Jazz Band friends yesterday and I told them that I might go for student exchange in Australia for a semester and one of them said, 'I will be sad.' Right then,I could not bear to let them go. Having to leave them for a semester,not only them but Persaudaraan Kristian Agape (PKA) and the rest of my uni's friends,that broke my heart. I don't know why.My heart couldn't let go.
A part of me really hope that I will be rejected by the University of Adelaide in Australia and a part of me said,'Well,it's a good experience.' Even my mother is very supportive about it. I applied because I wanted to allow God to decide for me. But playing for convocation today as a Jazz Band members and recalling on how God used me to impact Jazz Band.. I don't know if I am ready to leave all of this behind knowing that I will not join Jazz Band if I return from Australia. I don't know if I am ready to say goodbye to my friends knowing that they will be graduating a semester ahead of me and I would be left with only one semester to spend precious time with them. :'( I don't know if I am ready.
Dear:Heavenly Father,
I don't know Lord on what or how am I feeling toward student exchange program. Even though I said to You that You would the decider for this difficult decision. But my heart couldn't let go of friendships that You've gave me knowing that You have uses me to impact them,to sayang them,to guide them and the same they did to me in return. I don't know Lord if I am ready to let go. I am sorry Lord. But Lord,You have your time for all of the things that going to happen in my life and I believe Your plan is to Prosper me Lord. That in whatever you do Lord, You have Your reasons. Guide me Lord on what to do. For I am really naive and clueless on what to do. But You shall be my guide and way for the race that You have written for me.:) Because I have You, I shall learn not to worry but to cast it unto You. Even when I don't know what to do. Thank you Lord. In Jesus' Name,Amen.
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Graduation.
POSTED ON: 22 April 2012 @ 1:35 AM | 2 comments
I was playing for the convocation as a Jazz Band member today. But the first thought that came to my mind when I was having rehearsal yesterday was 'Next year it will be your turn if you are not selected for the student exchange.' ( I am applying for student exchange and still waiting for the confirmation). My heart skipped a beat.
Because the fact that the time flew so quick that I do not even realised that it's approaching the the end of semester. I was actually worried,you see. I was having McDonald with my Jazz Band friends yesterday and I told them that I might go for student exchange in Australia for a semester and one of them said, 'I will be sad.' Right then,I could not bear to let them go. Having to leave them for a semester,not only them but Persaudaraan Kristian Agape (PKA) and the rest of my uni's friends,that broke my heart. I don't know why.My heart couldn't let go.
A part of me really hope that I will be rejected by the University of Adelaide in Australia and a part of me said,'Well,it's a good experience.' Even my mother is very supportive about it. I applied because I wanted to allow God to decide for me. But playing for convocation today as a Jazz Band members and recalling on how God used me to impact Jazz Band.. I don't know if I am ready to leave all of this behind knowing that I will not join Jazz Band if I return from Australia. I don't know if I am ready to say goodbye to my friends knowing that they will be graduating a semester ahead of me and I would be left with only one semester to spend precious time with them. :'( I don't know if I am ready.
Dear:Heavenly Father,
I don't know Lord on what or how am I feeling toward student exchange program. Even though I said to You that You would the decider for this difficult decision. But my heart couldn't let go of friendships that You've gave me knowing that You have uses me to impact them,to sayang them,to guide them and the same they did to me in return. I don't know Lord if I am ready to let go. I am sorry Lord. But Lord,You have your time for all of the things that going to happen in my life and I believe Your plan is to Prosper me Lord. That in whatever you do Lord, You have Your reasons. Guide me Lord on what to do. For I am really naive and clueless on what to do. But You shall be my guide and way for the race that You have written for me.:) Because I have You, I shall learn not to worry but to cast it unto You. Even when I don't know what to do. Thank you Lord. In Jesus' Name,Amen.
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