Why you do what you do?
POSTED ON: 23 November 2013 @ 1:09 PM | 0 comments
I realised that no matter what I do; I often ask myself,
Why are you doing this , Fong Wan?
And when I realised that when the answer is because of God,
I find myself, smiling for what I did.
That for me , is one simple joy in life.
Labels: thoughts
Good teacher?
POSTED ON: 23 October 2013 @ 1:38 AM | 0 comments
In the midst of teaching, I received a statement behind my back that the works that I gave to my Year 6 wasn't good enough and it were not up to the standard. The person added, ' I do not understand why the school would want to hire someone as inexperienced as her.'
Heartbroken and felt helpless inside of me.
I was wondering, ' Why did I choose a job with such a low pay and getting pushed?'. Told myself, 'It is okay. I just gotta swallow this and be better teacher with this comment.'
However inside my hearts ; for many days, I asked 'Am I a good teacher?' , 'Am I up to being a teacher?' and 'Is that what everyone thinking?'. I am not someone who is able to withstand being pushed over. Many times, I wanted to confront the person and say 'Just tell me these in front of me so that I can improve. Because you are a teacher too. Teach me!'
A few days later, I asked another teacher. She is 70 plus years old and still teaching. I asked her ' How do you feel going into the school being inexperienced when you first started?'. She told me,
'I wasn't inexperienced. I was trained. But I was trained under a principal who did not like me. The principal said to me once, some teachers are born-teacher. Some are not. And YOU ARE NOT!'
Then she continued, 'Until now, I still remember what she said. But what she said makes me a better teacher. Because I work harder to prove that I am actually a good teacher.'
With teary eyes ; my heart was whispering, ' This gonna make me a better teacher too. It will not stop me from being a passionate good teacher.'
Proverbs 3:6
In all your ways, SUBMIT to HIM and He will make your PATH STRAIGHT.
Labels: Father's love, life, school, teacher, thoughts
Work.
POSTED ON: 09 October 2013 @ 8:29 PM | 1 comments
''Work''
Sometimes, I stopped and think..'Is this what you want to do for the rest of your life...work?' ; 'Do you find pleasure in working?'I can answer a definite 'NO!' for the first question and clueless about the second answer! Sometimes I struggled with 'Is this what you really want to do?'I don't know how people can make it. How older workers work the whole time in their life and manage their time. I am so much younger and sometimes I am just so exhausted.
I think I just want to find meanings in the things I do in my life. I know the source of the meaning is God. And I know the road of being a teacher itself is not easy. So much to learn to be a dedicated teacher .
'One step at a time.'
Also, it had been a little hard to keep in touch with friends but please note that you all are always in my hearts. You don't know how many times I read those letters/notes you gave. You don't know how many times I scrolled Facebook pictures to see us.
But, I just gotta move on. Told myself I needed six month..so it's till March to be in some 'dreamy' moods. I also find that life is not stagnant. Meeting new people and moving to another place are always parts of life that constantly reminds us to live to the fullest in our present and do our best for the Lord and the people around us in that point of our lives.
And no matter, I still got Jesus with me. :)
Labels: blessed, God, personal, thoughts
Doing what you do.
POSTED ON: 01 September 2013 @ 8:54 PM | 0 comments
What is your passion?
What are the things you believe in?
Go all out and live for the passion and everything you believe in.Because these two things are going to push you whenever you feel like a failure. There are reasons why you are living the way you living. Believe me when I said, ' You are what you made because of your choices.'. For me , it's...
Labels: God, random, thoughts
I am Home.
POSTED ON: 28 July 2013 @ 7:39 PM | 1 comments
It had been a week since I came back from Cameron Camp. When people asked me whether I have this post-cameron-camp-syndrome, I told them, 'Yeahhh..but I am also having more of this post-graduation-from-USM-syndrome'. Honestly, I miss everything about PENANG, USM and everyone who is going to be there in September. Sometimes , I wish September would come a little bit faster so that I can see familiar faces again. Because of that, I did not feel that I am home.
I know the ministry at home is not going to be easy. But I love what Mother Teresa said that 'We can do no great things only small things with great love.' It reminded me on how little things that were done out of love that really matter to God than doing big great things out of own desires. Maybe just washing plates, sweeping floor, listening to sister, listening to brother, accompanying my mother to watch television...just being there to help as much as I can... in little things,out of love that matters.
It was hard at first when I came back especially the first few days in Melaka. I wanted to run, to go to somewhere where I can do what I want, to have the freedom to be who I want to be..but I know deep inside of me, I was being very selfish just by thinking of that. How can I leave my family behind and not be there for them after what I've learnt of Him in the past three years? How can I know God by myself and not share Him and demonstrate Him with my loves one?
My family needs love, not the normal love...but my Father's perfect love. And I know...I know now God is here with me..in this family of mine. Yes, right now, this house! God loves this family too. And I know it is not going to be easy. But I am not giving up. I am not giving up serving this family because I know God is not giving up as well.
So finally after some days of re-adapting here, I just want to say..'I am home.' And I am glad I am home.I know this journey can be a little bit shaky ahead, but I will stand firm with Christ as the foundation. Because God so loved my mother, brother and sister too that He ALSO gave up His only begotten son to die for them. With that, I will try my best but also reminded to let God to do the rest. So yeah... I am home, people!
1st Corinthians 15:58 : Therefore my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labour in the Lord is not in vain.
1st Corinthians 16: 13-14: Be on your guard, stand firm in faith, be men of courage; be strong. Do everything in love.
Labels: blessed, family, Father's love, firm, God, home, thoughts
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Why you do what you do?
POSTED ON: 23 November 2013 @ 1:09 PM | 0 comments
I realised that no matter what I do; I often ask myself,
Why are you doing this , Fong Wan?
And when I realised that when the answer is because of God,
I find myself, smiling for what I did.
That for me , is one simple joy in life.
Labels: thoughts
Good teacher?
POSTED ON: 23 October 2013 @ 1:38 AM | 0 comments
In the midst of teaching, I received a statement behind my back that the works that I gave to my Year 6 wasn't good enough and it were not up to the standard. The person added, ' I do not understand why the school would want to hire someone as inexperienced as her.'
Heartbroken and felt helpless inside of me.
I was wondering, ' Why did I choose a job with such a low pay and getting pushed?'. Told myself, 'It is okay. I just gotta swallow this and be better teacher with this comment.'
However inside my hearts ; for many days, I asked 'Am I a good teacher?' , 'Am I up to being a teacher?' and 'Is that what everyone thinking?'. I am not someone who is able to withstand being pushed over. Many times, I wanted to confront the person and say 'Just tell me these in front of me so that I can improve. Because you are a teacher too. Teach me!'
A few days later, I asked another teacher. She is 70 plus years old and still teaching. I asked her ' How do you feel going into the school being inexperienced when you first started?'. She told me,
'I wasn't inexperienced. I was trained. But I was trained under a principal who did not like me. The principal said to me once, some teachers are born-teacher. Some are not. And YOU ARE NOT!'
Then she continued, 'Until now, I still remember what she said. But what she said makes me a better teacher. Because I work harder to prove that I am actually a good teacher.'
With teary eyes ; my heart was whispering, ' This gonna make me a better teacher too. It will not stop me from being a passionate good teacher.'
Proverbs 3:6
In all your ways, SUBMIT to HIM and He will make your PATH STRAIGHT.
Labels: Father's love, life, school, teacher, thoughts
Work.
POSTED ON: 09 October 2013 @ 8:29 PM | 1 comments
''Work''
Sometimes, I stopped and think..'Is this what you want to do for the rest of your life...work?' ; 'Do you find pleasure in working?'I can answer a definite 'NO!' for the first question and clueless about the second answer! Sometimes I struggled with 'Is this what you really want to do?'I don't know how people can make it. How older workers work the whole time in their life and manage their time. I am so much younger and sometimes I am just so exhausted.
I think I just want to find meanings in the things I do in my life. I know the source of the meaning is God. And I know the road of being a teacher itself is not easy. So much to learn to be a dedicated teacher .
'One step at a time.'
Also, it had been a little hard to keep in touch with friends but please note that you all are always in my hearts. You don't know how many times I read those letters/notes you gave. You don't know how many times I scrolled Facebook pictures to see us.
But, I just gotta move on. Told myself I needed six month..so it's till March to be in some 'dreamy' moods. I also find that life is not stagnant. Meeting new people and moving to another place are always parts of life that constantly reminds us to live to the fullest in our present and do our best for the Lord and the people around us in that point of our lives.
And no matter, I still got Jesus with me. :)
Labels: blessed, God, personal, thoughts
Doing what you do.
POSTED ON: 01 September 2013 @ 8:54 PM | 0 comments
What is your passion?
What are the things you believe in?
Go all out and live for the passion and everything you believe in.Because these two things are going to push you whenever you feel like a failure. There are reasons why you are living the way you living. Believe me when I said, ' You are what you made because of your choices.'. For me , it's...
Labels: God, random, thoughts
I am Home.
POSTED ON: 28 July 2013 @ 7:39 PM | 1 comments
It had been a week since I came back from Cameron Camp. When people asked me whether I have this post-cameron-camp-syndrome, I told them, 'Yeahhh..but I am also having more of this post-graduation-from-USM-syndrome'. Honestly, I miss everything about PENANG, USM and everyone who is going to be there in September. Sometimes , I wish September would come a little bit faster so that I can see familiar faces again. Because of that, I did not feel that I am home.
I know the ministry at home is not going to be easy. But I love what Mother Teresa said that 'We can do no great things only small things with great love.' It reminded me on how little things that were done out of love that really matter to God than doing big great things out of own desires. Maybe just washing plates, sweeping floor, listening to sister, listening to brother, accompanying my mother to watch television...just being there to help as much as I can... in little things,out of love that matters.
It was hard at first when I came back especially the first few days in Melaka. I wanted to run, to go to somewhere where I can do what I want, to have the freedom to be who I want to be..but I know deep inside of me, I was being very selfish just by thinking of that. How can I leave my family behind and not be there for them after what I've learnt of Him in the past three years? How can I know God by myself and not share Him and demonstrate Him with my loves one?
My family needs love, not the normal love...but my Father's perfect love. And I know...I know now God is here with me..in this family of mine. Yes, right now, this house! God loves this family too. And I know it is not going to be easy. But I am not giving up. I am not giving up serving this family because I know God is not giving up as well.
So finally after some days of re-adapting here, I just want to say..'I am home.' And I am glad I am home.I know this journey can be a little bit shaky ahead, but I will stand firm with Christ as the foundation. Because God so loved my mother, brother and sister too that He ALSO gave up His only begotten son to die for them. With that, I will try my best but also reminded to let God to do the rest. So yeah... I am home, people!
1st Corinthians 15:58 : Therefore my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labour in the Lord is not in vain.
1st Corinthians 16: 13-14: Be on your guard, stand firm in faith, be men of courage; be strong. Do everything in love.
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