POSTED ON: 05 December 2015 @ 11:43 PM | 0 comments
Many times I have forgotten that many helpless people could have benefited more from the money I have used to spend on myself.
Not Losing Sight.
POSTED ON: 20 September 2015 @ 8:34 PM | 0 comments
While I was taking the bread today during the Holy Communion, I was surprised to be reminded that 'God is with me'. I came across that sentence many times without really understanding it. The word , ' With' has the closest meaning to 'Alongside' or 'Together'. I thought I was enduring my weaknesses myself but I forgot He was enduring it with me. I forgot in all those times when I am struggling, He was there. It is a powerful thing to know that God is willing to be by your side no matter any conditions you are in even if you are really in bad situations. I also believe that it is us who always shuts God out of our lives. Not Him.
With the economics downfall , political instabilities and racial discrimination, it is normal to feel hopelessness and disappointments. Instant remedies such as finding a better-income job to obtain better security for prospect is just a one-length arm access to most of us and migrating to a more secured country seems to be a better option.
But We have God, aren't we? He is with us, isn't He? If apostles such as Paul who suffered greatly and yet wrote , 'To live is Christ and die is Gain.'. What more us? We are not supposed to live so comfortably actually. It is a blessing if we do. But I do hope that when we do live comfortably, please remember to have a single -minded goal ; that is God and His purpose ; To reconcile everything unto Him.
After all, worldly things are not permanent. What are you investing? Here or Home?
Labels: reminder
Step By Step
POSTED ON: 28 July 2015 @ 2:29 PM | 0 comments
It is nearly a year since the last post was being posted. Truthfully, I wasn't really know what I was doing other than just teaching and hanging out with friends occasionally.
Two years had passed so quickly since the last time I was ever so closed to the One whom I promised to devote my life unto. Along the way of working, the quiet time which was supposed to be laid aside was getting lesser by each day. The attitude of 'No, I don't wanna go to church' started to grow in my thoughts and gradually in my actions. My attitude became more and more like the rest of the world and I was unkind and impatient. In other word, I was self-centered and money-oriented. I believed in self-driven success.
It is not wrong to think likewise. It was just my intention of doing so, was just to stay 'alive' in this world which seemed to be ever draining my time and energy.
Until I had a growth, a cyst which is 5.7 cm under my ovary and was diagnosed with 50% of probability for it being malignant. To be frank, I wasn't even worried because I wanted to go for an 'experience' in Australia and NZ so badly for seven months which I planned since February. Even when I had the pain so severely that I couldn't walk, my lust for what I wanted had definitely lured me alive.
I knew it was a 'No' from God but I couldn't care less. I planned and spent money buying this and that for traveling purposes. Just six days before the departure day to Australia, my university mates who were serving in CF together in the past came and I was 'persuaded' not to go. I had to miss my flight yet again.
However, I know I made the right choice. I was blessed with so many cares and concerns through prayers from friends and also, a love gift from God that was very timely. I was sad, no doubt. Having to miss my 'adventure' again for the second time and to know that I needed to go for an operation to remove a female organ.
But I have never been this close to the One who I promised to devote my life, in these two years. So I am thankful and grateful for I know now; even more convicingly ; Nothing else matters. Just God , His Word and Works.
1st Pet 1: 6-7 : In this ,you greatly rejoice , though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith , being so much more precious than the gold that perishes , though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
The verse was explaining that with the knowledge of resurrection of Christ, fellow believers should greatly REJOICE that in life even when one may face challenges (eg:persecutions) , that one may found praising the Lord until the day He comes. :)
The Cute is BACK! HAHAHAHAHA!
POSTED ON: 12 August 2014 @ 12:09 AM | 0 comments
Hiii! (flowers for YOU!!!!) It had beeeennnn like soooo long since I penned down my thoughts and my life in this blog. "Welcome back" to me! Lappie spoilt for second time too. Hence, the delay! :) There were many changes in life ---- not really dramatic though. HAHAHA!
1. I am officially a car driver.
Yeah, you heard me. I have a car! *Praise the Lord*. But I am really in an initial stage of driving that my student who I was fetching was frightened when I fetched him back home. However, I have to say... prayers are really needed for someone like me. So, it is a good platform to really place my trust in Lord and a patience-learning platform.
2. I quit my job.
I know. I know! Surprisingly, I did! Now I am on my way to be a relief teacher in government public school. To support myself in this unemployed season, I have some freelance tuition with a couple of students. So yeah, I can't spend much but I just need to spend wisely.
3. I want to be involved in church.
Enough of excuses of not doing this or doing that. I think it is not matter of time (because I thought of not staying put in Melaka for long), it is matter of willingness. I also believe in this season of 'not-wanting-to-involve-in-anything', I learnt human can come up with any excuses for things they not want to do. And when we do that, we are really making decisions ourselves without putting Lord into our decisions. I do believe that involvement of church is important in a Christian's life. Not so much of displaying you are a Christian, but as an act of obedience to the Lord and a testimony for other Christians to follow.
4. I AM GOING TO BE BAPTISED!
I saved the best for the last. So, there you go! I will be baptised and I am very excited. Nine years and at last! I was asked the meaning of baptism by a brother in church. I told him it was 'Dying of old self , burial of sin and rising as a new self with Christ ; Not as slave of sin but slave of righteousness'. Yeah, it is correct. But when he told me it is also UNION / ONENESS with God, I thought for a while. I mean I really thought for a while. I was thinking 'Why would God want to be ONE with a sinner like me?'. I know it is because of love. But it is just that I cannot comprehend the MASSIVENESS of his love for me.Like WOW!I am thankful I am loved. :')
THAT'S ALL for now! I am reading ' In The Grip of Grace' by Max Lucado (which took me months! Come on Fong Wan!!) and I wanna share this:
"You are saved, not because what you do but because of what Christ did. And you are special, not because of what you do , but because of whose you are . And you are HIS. And because we are His, let's forget the shortcuts and stay on the main road. He knows the way. He drew the map. He knows the way home."
Labels: adventure, blessed, firm, Jesus, personal, update
Little Updates.
POSTED ON: 13 May 2014 @ 7:43 PM | 0 comments
Funny how I didn't update my blog. Wasn't really busy. Just I am in this season of confusion. HAHAHA! I know...I know! Me getting confused. It just weird!
I meean I always know what is ahead. (a little or less). Now it seems that I don't know. It is like I am walking everyday's life trying to finish what is it for that day..for me and myself or the task.
But I never wanted to live that kind of life. I never want to be another normal person in the world. Neither I want to just live ordinary life --- finding career, money, a house, marriage and son and daughter.
I am not saying I want extraordinary life. I just want to find meaning in things that I do, daily. I want to just impact and just wanna live His planned-out life for me. I want to just be the woman that God wants.
Maybe what I need to learn is to see Him in the things I do, daily. Maybe that is how one can live an extraordinary life for God ---by putting Him in the centre of all ordinary things. :)
Planned-out Plans!
POSTED ON: 04 April 2014 @ 11:30 AM | 0 comments
Been planning out life, but nothing goes according to what I planned. I guess I am frustrated and disappointed. Not once but a few. But but but, I learnt lessons through this season.
1) I always want to be god of my life.
I love planning and want things my ways. Rather than just submitting it to God, I choose to plan my life and how I should live, forgetting this life is supposed to be a worship unto the Lord. Well, I am kinda like making my life a worship for myself. So much of self-fulfillment , isn't it? Totally forgotten, that I was already dead but made alive in Christ, supposingly my new life is a platform/tool/ agent/ ambassador ( u name it) of Christ.
2. Don't always ask God for a YES as answer rather asking God for His will.
One thing about the selfish me is that I always want God to answer my prayers. Like 'I wanna do this', 'Give me this', 'Grant me this' and 'Help me with this' rather than, 'O'Lord, answer my prayer according to Your will, that no matter answers You give, I will accept it knowing You are a sovereign God.' I also realised I always prepare myself for the good result but not the bad result. So I have learnt I need to always prepare for a NO answer knowing that my God is GOOD.
3. My God really really really sees things in bigger picture. (like way bigger and awesomer)
I see my future with my eyes and want it the way I think it is good. But I believe that God have better and way awesome plans for me if only I am willing to submit in His ways. Like seriously. I just have to trust that He is going to use me greatly, no matter how blurry is the road in front of me. I just gotta trust in my Dad. 'Give me life in Thy ways' ... I learned that in camp and I am so going to practice it. :)
Last but not least, I was watching this movie 'The Tree of Life' and there was this quote in the movie which left quite an impact on me.
The nuns taught us there are two ways through life … the way of Nature… and the way of Grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. Grace doesn't try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy... when all the world is shining around it... when love is smiling through all things.
(2 Corinthians 5 :14-15) For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.
Labels: adventure, blessed, Jesus, journey, life, personal
I AM THIRD.
POSTED ON: 20 March 2014 @ 12:18 PM | 0 comments
Once a girl was bullying a nerd in school. She realised he was wearing a badge stating, 'I am third.' She pushed her to the locker and said , 'What is this? What do you mean you are THIRD?'
The nerd replied, 'Jesus FIRST, everyone else SECOND and I am THIRD.'
That is one good example of living selflessly. Do you want to be third in your daily life? Will you?
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POSTED ON: 05 December 2015 @ 11:43 PM | 0 comments
Many times I have forgotten that many helpless people could have benefited more from the money I have used to spend on myself.
Not Losing Sight.
POSTED ON: 20 September 2015 @ 8:34 PM | 0 comments
While I was taking the bread today during the Holy Communion, I was surprised to be reminded that 'God is with me'. I came across that sentence many times without really understanding it. The word , ' With' has the closest meaning to 'Alongside' or 'Together'. I thought I was enduring my weaknesses myself but I forgot He was enduring it with me. I forgot in all those times when I am struggling, He was there. It is a powerful thing to know that God is willing to be by your side no matter any conditions you are in even if you are really in bad situations. I also believe that it is us who always shuts God out of our lives. Not Him.
With the economics downfall , political instabilities and racial discrimination, it is normal to feel hopelessness and disappointments. Instant remedies such as finding a better-income job to obtain better security for prospect is just a one-length arm access to most of us and migrating to a more secured country seems to be a better option.
But We have God, aren't we? He is with us, isn't He? If apostles such as Paul who suffered greatly and yet wrote , 'To live is Christ and die is Gain.'. What more us? We are not supposed to live so comfortably actually. It is a blessing if we do. But I do hope that when we do live comfortably, please remember to have a single -minded goal ; that is God and His purpose ; To reconcile everything unto Him.
After all, worldly things are not permanent. What are you investing? Here or Home?
Labels: reminder
Step By Step
POSTED ON: 28 July 2015 @ 2:29 PM | 0 comments
It is nearly a year since the last post was being posted. Truthfully, I wasn't really know what I was doing other than just teaching and hanging out with friends occasionally.
Two years had passed so quickly since the last time I was ever so closed to the One whom I promised to devote my life unto. Along the way of working, the quiet time which was supposed to be laid aside was getting lesser by each day. The attitude of 'No, I don't wanna go to church' started to grow in my thoughts and gradually in my actions. My attitude became more and more like the rest of the world and I was unkind and impatient. In other word, I was self-centered and money-oriented. I believed in self-driven success.
It is not wrong to think likewise. It was just my intention of doing so, was just to stay 'alive' in this world which seemed to be ever draining my time and energy.
Until I had a growth, a cyst which is 5.7 cm under my ovary and was diagnosed with 50% of probability for it being malignant. To be frank, I wasn't even worried because I wanted to go for an 'experience' in Australia and NZ so badly for seven months which I planned since February. Even when I had the pain so severely that I couldn't walk, my lust for what I wanted had definitely lured me alive.
I knew it was a 'No' from God but I couldn't care less. I planned and spent money buying this and that for traveling purposes. Just six days before the departure day to Australia, my university mates who were serving in CF together in the past came and I was 'persuaded' not to go. I had to miss my flight yet again.
However, I know I made the right choice. I was blessed with so many cares and concerns through prayers from friends and also, a love gift from God that was very timely. I was sad, no doubt. Having to miss my 'adventure' again for the second time and to know that I needed to go for an operation to remove a female organ.
But I have never been this close to the One who I promised to devote my life, in these two years. So I am thankful and grateful for I know now; even more convicingly ; Nothing else matters. Just God , His Word and Works.
1st Pet 1: 6-7 : In this ,you greatly rejoice , though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faith , being so much more precious than the gold that perishes , though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
The verse was explaining that with the knowledge of resurrection of Christ, fellow believers should greatly REJOICE that in life even when one may face challenges (eg:persecutions) , that one may found praising the Lord until the day He comes. :)
The Cute is BACK! HAHAHAHAHA!
POSTED ON: 12 August 2014 @ 12:09 AM | 0 comments
Hiii! (flowers for YOU!!!!) It had beeeennnn like soooo long since I penned down my thoughts and my life in this blog. "Welcome back" to me! Lappie spoilt for second time too. Hence, the delay! :) There were many changes in life ---- not really dramatic though. HAHAHA!
1. I am officially a car driver.
Yeah, you heard me. I have a car! *Praise the Lord*. But I am really in an initial stage of driving that my student who I was fetching was frightened when I fetched him back home. However, I have to say... prayers are really needed for someone like me. So, it is a good platform to really place my trust in Lord and a patience-learning platform.
2. I quit my job.
I know. I know! Surprisingly, I did! Now I am on my way to be a relief teacher in government public school. To support myself in this unemployed season, I have some freelance tuition with a couple of students. So yeah, I can't spend much but I just need to spend wisely.
3. I want to be involved in church.
Enough of excuses of not doing this or doing that. I think it is not matter of time (because I thought of not staying put in Melaka for long), it is matter of willingness. I also believe in this season of 'not-wanting-to-involve-in-anything', I learnt human can come up with any excuses for things they not want to do. And when we do that, we are really making decisions ourselves without putting Lord into our decisions. I do believe that involvement of church is important in a Christian's life. Not so much of displaying you are a Christian, but as an act of obedience to the Lord and a testimony for other Christians to follow.
4. I AM GOING TO BE BAPTISED!
I saved the best for the last. So, there you go! I will be baptised and I am very excited. Nine years and at last! I was asked the meaning of baptism by a brother in church. I told him it was 'Dying of old self , burial of sin and rising as a new self with Christ ; Not as slave of sin but slave of righteousness'. Yeah, it is correct. But when he told me it is also UNION / ONENESS with God, I thought for a while. I mean I really thought for a while. I was thinking 'Why would God want to be ONE with a sinner like me?'. I know it is because of love. But it is just that I cannot comprehend the MASSIVENESS of his love for me.Like WOW!I am thankful I am loved. :')
THAT'S ALL for now! I am reading ' In The Grip of Grace' by Max Lucado (which took me months! Come on Fong Wan!!) and I wanna share this:
"You are saved, not because what you do but because of what Christ did. And you are special, not because of what you do , but because of whose you are . And you are HIS. And because we are His, let's forget the shortcuts and stay on the main road. He knows the way. He drew the map. He knows the way home."
Labels: adventure, blessed, firm, Jesus, personal, update
Little Updates.
POSTED ON: 13 May 2014 @ 7:43 PM | 0 comments
Funny how I didn't update my blog. Wasn't really busy. Just I am in this season of confusion. HAHAHA! I know...I know! Me getting confused. It just weird!
I meean I always know what is ahead. (a little or less). Now it seems that I don't know. It is like I am walking everyday's life trying to finish what is it for that day..for me and myself or the task.
But I never wanted to live that kind of life. I never want to be another normal person in the world. Neither I want to just live ordinary life --- finding career, money, a house, marriage and son and daughter.
I am not saying I want extraordinary life. I just want to find meaning in things that I do, daily. I want to just impact and just wanna live His planned-out life for me. I want to just be the woman that God wants.
Maybe what I need to learn is to see Him in the things I do, daily. Maybe that is how one can live an extraordinary life for God ---by putting Him in the centre of all ordinary things. :)
Planned-out Plans!
POSTED ON: 04 April 2014 @ 11:30 AM | 0 comments
Been planning out life, but nothing goes according to what I planned. I guess I am frustrated and disappointed. Not once but a few. But but but, I learnt lessons through this season.
1) I always want to be god of my life.
I love planning and want things my ways. Rather than just submitting it to God, I choose to plan my life and how I should live, forgetting this life is supposed to be a worship unto the Lord. Well, I am kinda like making my life a worship for myself. So much of self-fulfillment , isn't it? Totally forgotten, that I was already dead but made alive in Christ, supposingly my new life is a platform/tool/ agent/ ambassador ( u name it) of Christ.
2. Don't always ask God for a YES as answer rather asking God for His will.
One thing about the selfish me is that I always want God to answer my prayers. Like 'I wanna do this', 'Give me this', 'Grant me this' and 'Help me with this' rather than, 'O'Lord, answer my prayer according to Your will, that no matter answers You give, I will accept it knowing You are a sovereign God.' I also realised I always prepare myself for the good result but not the bad result. So I have learnt I need to always prepare for a NO answer knowing that my God is GOOD.
3. My God really really really sees things in bigger picture. (like way bigger and awesomer)
I see my future with my eyes and want it the way I think it is good. But I believe that God have better and way awesome plans for me if only I am willing to submit in His ways. Like seriously. I just have to trust that He is going to use me greatly, no matter how blurry is the road in front of me. I just gotta trust in my Dad. 'Give me life in Thy ways' ... I learned that in camp and I am so going to practice it. :)
Last but not least, I was watching this movie 'The Tree of Life' and there was this quote in the movie which left quite an impact on me.
The nuns taught us there are two ways through life … the way of Nature… and the way of Grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. Grace doesn't try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy... when all the world is shining around it... when love is smiling through all things.
(2 Corinthians 5 :14-15) For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.
Labels: adventure, blessed, Jesus, journey, life, personal
I AM THIRD.
POSTED ON: 20 March 2014 @ 12:18 PM | 0 comments
Once a girl was bullying a nerd in school. She realised he was wearing a badge stating, 'I am third.' She pushed her to the locker and said , 'What is this? What do you mean you are THIRD?'
The nerd replied, 'Jesus FIRST, everyone else SECOND and I am THIRD.'
That is one good example of living selflessly. Do you want to be third in your daily life? Will you?
← Older / Scroll Back Up
