The Cute is BACK! HAHAHAHAHA!
POSTED ON: 12 August 2014 @ 12:09 AM | 0 comments
Hiii! (flowers for YOU!!!!) It had beeeennnn like soooo long since I penned down my thoughts and my life in this blog. "Welcome back" to me! Lappie spoilt for second time too. Hence, the delay! :) There were many changes in life ---- not really dramatic though. HAHAHA!
1. I am officially a car driver.
Yeah, you heard me. I have a car! *Praise the Lord*. But I am really in an initial stage of driving that my student who I was fetching was frightened when I fetched him back home. However, I have to say... prayers are really needed for someone like me. So, it is a good platform to really place my trust in Lord and a patience-learning platform.
2. I quit my job.
I know. I know! Surprisingly, I did! Now I am on my way to be a relief teacher in government public school. To support myself in this unemployed season, I have some freelance tuition with a couple of students. So yeah, I can't spend much but I just need to spend wisely.
3. I want to be involved in church.
Enough of excuses of not doing this or doing that. I think it is not matter of time (because I thought of not staying put in Melaka for long), it is matter of willingness. I also believe in this season of 'not-wanting-to-involve-in-anything', I learnt human can come up with any excuses for things they not want to do. And when we do that, we are really making decisions ourselves without putting Lord into our decisions. I do believe that involvement of church is important in a Christian's life. Not so much of displaying you are a Christian, but as an act of obedience to the Lord and a testimony for other Christians to follow.
4. I AM GOING TO BE BAPTISED!
I saved the best for the last. So, there you go! I will be baptised and I am very excited. Nine years and at last! I was asked the meaning of baptism by a brother in church. I told him it was 'Dying of old self , burial of sin and rising as a new self with Christ ; Not as slave of sin but slave of righteousness'. Yeah, it is correct. But when he told me it is also UNION / ONENESS with God, I thought for a while. I mean I really thought for a while. I was thinking 'Why would God want to be ONE with a sinner like me?'. I know it is because of love. But it is just that I cannot comprehend the MASSIVENESS of his love for me.Like WOW!I am thankful I am loved. :')
THAT'S ALL for now! I am reading ' In The Grip of Grace' by Max Lucado (which took me months! Come on Fong Wan!!) and I wanna share this:
"You are saved, not because what you do but because of what Christ did. And you are special, not because of what you do , but because of whose you are . And you are HIS. And because we are His, let's forget the shortcuts and stay on the main road. He knows the way. He drew the map. He knows the way home."
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Planned-out Plans!
POSTED ON: 04 April 2014 @ 11:30 AM | 0 comments
Been planning out life, but nothing goes according to what I planned. I guess I am frustrated and disappointed. Not once but a few. But but but, I learnt lessons through this season.1) I always want to be god of my life.
I love planning and want things my ways. Rather than just submitting it to God, I choose to plan my life and how I should live, forgetting this life is supposed to be a worship unto the Lord. Well, I am kinda like making my life a worship for myself. So much of self-fulfillment , isn't it? Totally forgotten, that I was already dead but made alive in Christ, supposingly my new life is a platform/tool/ agent/ ambassador ( u name it) of Christ.
2. Don't always ask God for a YES as answer rather asking God for His will.
One thing about the selfish me is that I always want God to answer my prayers. Like 'I wanna do this', 'Give me this', 'Grant me this' and 'Help me with this' rather than, 'O'Lord, answer my prayer according to Your will, that no matter answers You give, I will accept it knowing You are a sovereign God.' I also realised I always prepare myself for the good result but not the bad result. So I have learnt I need to always prepare for a NO answer knowing that my God is GOOD.
3. My God really really really sees things in bigger picture. (like way bigger and awesomer)
I see my future with my eyes and want it the way I think it is good. But I believe that God have better and way awesome plans for me if only I am willing to submit in His ways. Like seriously. I just have to trust that He is going to use me greatly, no matter how blurry is the road in front of me. I just gotta trust in my Dad. 'Give me life in Thy ways' ... I learned that in camp and I am so going to practice it. :)
Last but not least, I was watching this movie 'The Tree of Life' and there was this quote in the movie which left quite an impact on me.
The nuns taught us there are two ways through life … the way of Nature… and the way of Grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. Grace doesn't try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy... when all the world is shining around it... when love is smiling through all things.
(2 Corinthians 5 :14-15) For Christ’s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for Him who died for them and was raised again.
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Letter from Myself.
POSTED ON: 13 January 2014 @ 8:26 PM | 0 comments
Received a letter from myself that I wrote months ago.And I read this sentence,
"Your life is not about leaving your legacy but leaving HIS legacy so that people will come to know that He is the only way, truth and life."
Thank you for the reminder, O'Lord.
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Saving Us.
POSTED ON: 17 November 2013 @ 9:49 PM | 0 comments
In Saving Private Ryan, eight men went to several parts of Normandy to find one man. His name is James Ryan. These eight men faced with various attacks from the enemies. They also faced some internal conflicts because they began losing trust for changing eight men's lives for one man. James Ryan did survived. However, only one of those eight men survived in order to make sure James Ryan survived the war. Captain Miller, a captain or the leader of the eight men said this to James before breathing his last breath,
'James, earn this...earn it. '
James wept with disbelief upon hearing that.
One day old James Ryan went back to the memorial that was contributed the soldiers that served in World War II. He went standing in front of the tomb of a man, Captain Miller.
James Ryan said,
My family is with me today. They wanted to come with me. To be honest with you, I...I wasn't sure how I'd feel coming back here. Every day I think about what you said to me that day on the bridge. I tried to live my life the best that I could. I hope that was enough. I hope that, at least in your eyes, I've earned what all of you have done for me.
This movie reminds me on how Jesus is like these eight men sacrificed their lives for a stranger named Ryan, whom they never see before.
I was thinking to myself after watching the movie that will I at my old age say this to myself 'At least in God's eyes, I've earned what He had done for me.'
Saving Private Ryan is a fictional story. A story about the sacrifice of eight men for a man's life. But the story of Jesus is about a sacrifice of a man for you and me. One perfect sacrifice to save us all from the wrath and the judgement of God. Many times, we may take this for granted.....our salvation.
But let us reminded again that we were never good enough for good God to die for us. We never can earn salvation. In exchange for what our Jesus had done for us on Calvary, I hope that in God's eyes, you and I try to live the best we can for Him for what He had done for us.
For in 1st Timothy 1: 13 to 16, Paul wrote
Even though I was once a blasphemer and a persecutor and a violent man, I was shown mercy because I acted in ignore and unbelief. The grace of our Lord was poured out to me abundantly, along with the faith and love that are in Jesus Christ. Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners- of whom I am worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his unlimited patience for an example for those who believe on him and receive eternal life.
And he continued to remind Timothy,
18...so that by following them you may fight a good fight , holding on to faith and good conscience.
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