Good teacher?
POSTED ON: 23 October 2013 @ 1:38 AM | 0 comments
In the midst of teaching, I received a statement behind my back that the works that I gave to my Year 6 wasn't good enough and it were not up to the standard. The person added, ' I do not understand why the school would want to hire someone as inexperienced as her.'
Heartbroken and felt helpless inside of me.
I was wondering, ' Why did I choose a job with such a low pay and getting pushed?'. Told myself, 'It is okay. I just gotta swallow this and be better teacher with this comment.'
However inside my hearts ; for many days, I asked 'Am I a good teacher?' , 'Am I up to being a teacher?' and 'Is that what everyone thinking?'. I am not someone who is able to withstand being pushed over. Many times, I wanted to confront the person and say 'Just tell me these in front of me so that I can improve. Because you are a teacher too. Teach me!'
A few days later, I asked another teacher. She is 70 plus years old and still teaching. I asked her ' How do you feel going into the school being inexperienced when you first started?'. She told me,
'I wasn't inexperienced. I was trained. But I was trained under a principal who did not like me. The principal said to me once, some teachers are born-teacher. Some are not. And YOU ARE NOT!'
Then she continued, 'Until now, I still remember what she said. But what she said makes me a better teacher. Because I work harder to prove that I am actually a good teacher.'
With teary eyes ; my heart was whispering, ' This gonna make me a better teacher too. It will not stop me from being a passionate good teacher.'
Proverbs 3:6
In all your ways, SUBMIT to HIM and He will make your PATH STRAIGHT.
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Same!
POSTED ON: 16 October 2013 @ 9:32 AM | 0 comments
Different chapter but SAME, CONSTANT GOD!
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Work.
POSTED ON: 09 October 2013 @ 8:29 PM | 1 comments
''Work''
Sometimes, I stopped and think..'Is this what you want to do for the rest of your life...work?' ; 'Do you find pleasure in working?'I can answer a definite 'NO!' for the first question and clueless about the second answer! Sometimes I struggled with 'Is this what you really want to do?'I don't know how people can make it. How older workers work the whole time in their life and manage their time. I am so much younger and sometimes I am just so exhausted.
I think I just want to find meanings in the things I do in my life. I know the source of the meaning is God. And I know the road of being a teacher itself is not easy. So much to learn to be a dedicated teacher .
'One step at a time.'
Also, it had been a little hard to keep in touch with friends but please note that you all are always in my hearts. You don't know how many times I read those letters/notes you gave. You don't know how many times I scrolled Facebook pictures to see us.
But, I just gotta move on. Told myself I needed six month..so it's till March to be in some 'dreamy' moods. I also find that life is not stagnant. Meeting new people and moving to another place are always parts of life that constantly reminds us to live to the fullest in our present and do our best for the Lord and the people around us in that point of our lives.
And no matter, I still got Jesus with me. :)
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